So this is my first post since signing up last year. I have always found the site so helpful and heartwarming. Here's my story and I hope my experiences can help others.
So me and my partner had been ttc for five years we should of seeked help earlier but we started our fertility joinery last year and we had our fresh cycle Sept/Oct 2017. I am fit healthy, I didn't want to obsess on diet although my diet is generally good, I drank proxeed vitamins, folic acid, iron, b12, vit d and vit c. I exercise regular and I drank alcohol up until egg collection which was just be odd glass on wine every now and agin nothing excessive. I went dye test and one tube was slighting blocked then I started my first cycle. I was on Buserelin and Gonal F I had 10 eggs collected, 6 fertilised and one made it to 5 day blast top grade which was tansferred.
The egg collection was horrendous I was in so much pain after going to the toilet was hellish I have never experienced anything like it.
After a very stressful tww we have our first ever positive test on otd, we did it again and again. We were pregnant, it was such a happy time. I was booked in for my first scan and it was everytime to us. A few days later I just had a feeling I did a test and it was negative, I totally freaked out I rang the clinic the nurse shouted at me for testing again. The next day I started to bleed and it was game over. The most upsetting time of our lives.
In Jan 2017 I had endo stratch and NK Cell test which showed I had a high raised NK cells, I proceeded with my next cycle the gonal f was changed to Menopur at a high doe and I started to take presnisolone and cyclogest pessaries. This time I concentrated more on diet and I did not drink alcohol through this cycle. This time I started to take Coq10 in my vitamins, I got 13 eggs 8 10 fertilised one top grade blast which was transferred and 4 blast which were frozen. Egg collection this time round wasn't as painful and the aftermath wasn't too bad. I think I was just unlucky the first time round.
Although I had remained positive throughout both cycles there was a lot of doubt with my second, I started acupuncture quite late on just before transfer which I loved and found relaxing. Unfortunately this turned out to be another chemical pregnancy, nothing can prepare you for that moment you see that second line on a test then before you know it your entire world comes crashing down.
From this moment I did not want to started another cycle without investigating with more test, so I paid for the blood tests for factor 5 etc all came back ok. Over the last three years I have struggled with bloating etc I have always been told by doctors it was IBS. I mentioned this to my consultant and he booked me in for a Laparoscopy which I had in July on endometriosis was found and taken away from my bladder, uterine and cervix. My consultant said this could of been a factor for chemical pregnancies or it could just been down to bad luck.
So here I am, I am very much into my FET cycle I have been taking buserelin for two weeks, I had my first scan yesterday which was fine and I started my Progynova tomorrow. I have never stopped taking all my vitamins, I have one black coffee in the morning throughout the day I will have lemon and ginger, peppermint or green tea. My diet is good with some treats thrown in because this process is hard enough and I haven't drank since my buserelin and I kinda cut alcohol out really since my last cycle.I have been doing acupuncture from the beginning of this cycle very week it is costly but it relaxes me. I was not prepared for this cycle like my others because I was told this was the best time to do to after having endometriosis removed . I had another endo stratch and my tubes are fine. Although I had two weeks off work after my cp's and two weeks for my op. I have a very stressful job, it's physically dangerous, I work shifts I work in a environment where if I was put on other duties I would be asked endless if I was pregnant. There are two females at work one who announced her pregnancy last week which I took really badly I ended crying in the toilets so I went to the doctors who has signed me off for this whole cycle. I feel like a massive relief not being here, I have never put myself first and I actually said out loud to myself I CAN DO THIS.
This can be a lonely process, this site gives me hope, advice and dreams I just want to say thank you. x