Feeling like shit after our 1st cycle failed. I felt so positive and lucky that everything was going so smoothly up until 6 days after the transfer of a day 5 blast. Started spotting and within a day or so i had heavy bleeding and knew straight away that it was over. My husband and a few people told me to keep positive and its not over until our OTD but i just knew. I feel sad and angry and confused as to why not. All the hard work was done for us and my body still couldn't get pregnant. I find that really hard to come to terms with as i think will it ever work??? I realise its my first round and success rates are low but still i just feel like "why us"....
My sister in law is currently 6 months pregnant...they found out 3 months after their wedding (of course!) i jokingly said yesterday that "at least i can have a drink today" when all i really wanted was to be drinking water all day happy in the knowing that i had a little baby growing inside me. Instead I laughed and smiled, drank my wine and pretended to enjoy myself. I feel empty. xxx