Hello all - me again :o)
Well..... I just came back from another pointless (and upsetting) GP appointment, during which I was again told that any- and every- physical symptom that I have is attributable to my poor mental health.
I also managed to somehow really annoy the Doctor by asking for copies of the (many) blood test results; he became very defensive and told me that the "relationship had broken down" (saw him for the first time two weeks ago when he put in the blood tests request and prescribed beta-blockers for the "anxiety" that he also diagnosed at that time). Never mind that I had gone to him (well, any GP, there is no choice....) with many physical symptoms that are typical of hypothyroid, let alone some other conditions.
I will always agree that the mind and body are not mutually exclusive and yes, it is lovely to have someone sympathise and understand that my terrible and ongoing and UNCHANGEABLE (I have worn myself into the ground trying to repair and at the same time, trying to suppress/half-accept what I cannot change) family situation and history - even to the point of telling me that I have been "poorly served" by the Psychologist(s) that I have seen...... BUT.....
......when the blood tests come back "normal" (yep - within range), then my physical symptoms are again disregarded and hand-waved away (although, as I said, the appointment was an unmitigated disaster (- I do NOT know how I do it!) . Leaving me at a loss again - and so I turn here to my lovely HU friends.
He did order many blood tests, which included BNP - for heart failure, which I had worried about, due to the fact that I "liquefy" during the course of a day - whether I eat, or drink (fluids, not vodka!), or not. Also a Ca125 test (for cancer, I believe), Celiac.... and the usual FBC, LFT, U&E, even LH and FSH haha.. No lipids/cholesterol - which has been on a steady rise over the last 18 months, but did get Vit B12, Vit D, Iron and Ferritin and Folate and TSH and T4 (no T3, obviously....).
He did say that some of the physical symptoms can be caused by changes in cortisol and adrenaline levels (themselves affected by stress, agreed), but there is no way to check these things.
(I did have a cortisol test a couple of years ago, so there is such a thing, I am aware.)
My raised BP (mostly 152/92 every day now....) and low basal temp (34 - 35 every day) don't really matter of course.
The most relevant results are -
T4 ----- 14.7 pmol/L [10.0 -18.7]
TSH ---- 2.63 miu/L [0.38 - 5.5]
(bloods were taken at around 10:45am)
Vit D ----- 56.7 nmol/L [- when 25 - 50 = mild deficiency]
Bit B12 ----- 517 ng/L [211 - 911]
Serum iron ----- 9 umol/L [9.0 - 30.0] = below reference limit
Haemoglobin ----- 39.0 mmol/mol [no range for this one]
Serum ferritin ---- 48 ng/mL [22.0 - 322.0]
Within the Full Blood Count, the RBC was above range and MCV below and MCH just in range.
(Mean Cell Volume, Mean Cellular Haemoglobin)
It seems that SOME of these results indicate anemia of some kind, but even that is being sidelined in "favour" of attributing every.single.thing to mental health, which is SO easy for them to pin everything on, as it is perfectly evident upon speaking to me for more than five minutes, that I have "issues" - but also, those issues simply can''t be fixed as I am on the receiving end (so to speak) rather than the inflicting end (although today's GP might disagree, feeling, as he said I did, that I went there "all guns blazing").
So, having left with mascara all over my face, a print out of SOME of the tests (he printed what he could, VERY reluctantly, before his printer ran out) and a very heavy heart, wondering if I really should move Surgery - afraid as I am of "leaping" from frying pan to frying pan :o/, especially as several things just never got mentioned apart from "in passing". When, as I was leaving, I wondered aloud, just how I manage to annoy people so easily, despite smiling a lot (too much, sometimes, it seems), he said, "Maybe it's the way you smile".
I feel no further forward and in some senses, have taken a step backwards as (yet)another GP makes a note on the records that I am depressed/anxious, histrionic and mentally unwell. But - haha - physically - quite possibly superhuman :o)
Any ideas, thoughts, suggestions - anything at all (apart from pointing out that yes, I do come across as a "head case") would be most gratefully received by this woeful human specimen.