I have panic disorder and i take buspar, prozac, wellbrurin daily and Lorazepam as needed (although my GP wants me off this). I cry a lot out of fear and it brings me relief but here lately when i try to cry i cant (i think the wellbrutin has helped the crying). But yet i still want to cry when i am afraid and this seems to be most of the time. I go through the motions and get upset and my mouth shivers like i am crying but no tears. I think i am doing this to myself, making it harder on myself, but why?
I saw my gp yesterday but she made no changes in meds and basically said so what other things can we do, like mindfulnes, breathing, meditation and exercise. I didnt ask for changes to my meds but today i called to speak with the nurse to request we try something different because i feel as though i am suffering needlessly and i feel panicked when i have to go somewhere under a time constraint, like picking my child up from school everyday. I cryed all the way driving to counseling today but i did it yet why should the suffering be so great.
Do i make any sense at all?
It comes to mind that i dont feel i have a purpose and have made very few friends since we moved here last summer. So i am anxious everyday and it is a vicious loop. Is it possible that i have made having anxiety my purpose and cant stop myself? Boy, that sounds dumb huh?
Thanks for letting me share