Hi everyone! I am a 30 y/o female with two little boys (3 and almost 7). I recently found out that I have PMDD. I have had anxiety since 2012 when I was pregnant with my youngest. They thought that it was PTSD since my uncle was murdered and I had to hide my pregnancy due to my families opinions about it. I go to CBT which has been two years in for me and it is great. But last month I got SEVERE anxiety, depression, hopelessness, and even suicidal thoughts (I could never leave my kids or harm myself) and realized it was all before and during my time of month. The doctor prescribed me Fluoxtine 20 mg last week which I havent started. I am so petrified to take it. I do not use medicines, or drugs or recreational drugs. I do smoke cigarettes to "cope" I guess you could say. I am currently in my PMDD stage (a week before again). I dont know what to do. I want to be the best mom possible. My boyfriend doesnt understand. My family says I caused this to myself since I had a second child. I just feel alone. I dont know what to do. Anyone been threw this?!
OH and I also found out I am low Vitamin D & B12 as well