Hi everyone. This is the first time I have reached out for support before but I am in a really bad place. I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder when I was 19 and have since been in citalopram, in reality I have had this disorder since I was 12, it was triggered by a house move. Initially it manifested itself as anorexia, I had no desire to be thin though. I had awful experiences with both a doctor and counsellor which put me off seeking help for 7 years. I got myself through university which was a huge achievement for me. Since graduating I have been seeking employment, knowing this could trigger my anxiety I aimed at jobs as local as possible. This week I was employed by a local company on a full time basis and this has triggered a spectacular mental meltdown. I know this job isn't right for me. I am having panic and anxiety attacks throughout the day then at home I am throwing up and crying. My parents say I have to stay in the job for financial reasons. My mum was the only one who knew about my disorder but she doesn't acknowledge it and I have just text my Dad telling him. I am just about to send an email quitting and feel seriously low. If I can't deal with this how am I going to do anything in my life? And if I dont get support or understanding from my family this will make me feel horrifically worse.