Was getting better but then haters. My therapist said something i just can't get over

[Against_the_current]

So i was going to the gym and spa, i have a 1 week card, and i was really feeling better. Today i should have had group therapy, i went to my yoga class in the gym the morning and left to go to the group therapy. Stressed about being late, about hte shedule etc. When i arrived at therapist office the therapist was alone and group therapy was cancelled because nobody came. And add to this being sad because i hurried and because nobody came, she told me i shouldn't have told the bosses at the interview i have anxiety. I told them i have a phobia of babies. Therapist and grandma said "why did u say it". Like how can i go back at time? You're making me more anxious. Should i be careful of every damn Word i say? This will drive me insane. This is neurotism. Why did u do this, why did u do that? Can i go back in time? Should i overthink every step htat i make? And my therapist said iwant them ot pity me. I know they discriminate me. But it's my work ethics to eb honest and say "i can't do this and htay". If my therapist had Ethics to say "i had a surgery and i can't work with u rn" it would be much better than her ruining the mood i earned with efforts and sweat (litterary). Why are bulgarian psychologists (my therapists, bosses, teachers, unimates, myself) terrible?! And then "You're not okay". Yes, i'm noooot. What would i do If i didn't warn? Mess apathient? If all doctors did everything we would be going to the vet, horses would be going to the cardiologist, chickens to the psychiatrist, squids to the dentist... Ignoring work Ethics to my own profit is hypocrisity and disgrace

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brig- tons of jerks ineptness frustrations, endless complida5ons and....find what fits what doesnt....get myself ready forlfie ahead and prep to prepare for challanges.....ignore what doesnt fit or work...or if people dont udnerstand...reommewnd u odo what works for u brig..

best wishes real me

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Brig

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dear brig- good luck on ur drawing....good or useful diversion from ugh reality...and helps block out u thinking about stuff u cant control...think its way cool how u found pepole here let u draw any subject....thats soo cool brig...so different...most people tell us ...their valeus are the right one...thats so cool people here let u literally do any subject.....that is sooo cool brig.....and any level....like me teaching u bulgarian...wed start simple words.....no wonder u rave about this site brig......my situa5ion whoa lots of compolkicated!!!!!!

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sorry u feel all alone and pwerless brig....must be scary...i can relate......

real me

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brig- i can help u with ur art-give u kideas and subjects and yoga....ill tell ur more soon-- i know u dont lke beng screamed at any more brig....we will go slow ok?

RM

[Against_the_current in reply to Hidden]

These examples are genius Brig

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boy brig- sounds like a lot of people here really been a big help to u hhbh?? so ur saying they can relate to my situa5ion....pretty cool thy are so beneolent brig.....take care RM

[hypercat54]

Why did you need to tell your potential employers you have a phobia of babies? Will it have any effect on the job? If not then why say something? Would you also tell them about the time you found some money on the ground and took it? Or that your flatmates don't seem to like you? Too much information there if you want to get a job. It's nothing to do with being honest/dishonest but presenting yourself in the best light instead of the worst. If you don't then you will never find one I'm afraid.

Not trying to be harsh or lack understanding but just to inject some reality into your situation. I agree with your therapist and Grandmother on this one. Don't over dramatise everything so much or take them to heart. Learn to take good advice when it is warranted and ignore anything which isn't.

[Against_the_current in reply to hypercat54]

This is making it worse. I should have stayed it so i don't do a mistake, they would make the schedule so i work with older clients. Imagine If they made me work with babies (which was highly possible, they have a lot of clients moms) and i freaked out. And i can't turn time backkkkk

[Daesin in reply to Against_the_current]

No you can’t turn back the clock but you can learn from your mistakes. if you shut down and lash out at the folks who try to help then you will burn up those relationships. Deep breaths. Accept that things didn’t go as you wanted and try not to make the same mistake. We all stumble. It’s ok. Brush yourself off and try again.

[NickieLane in reply to hypercat54]

Do you feel better? Your response to Real Me about admitting to being scared of babies. I must be missing something. Are you a professional? PHD? For you to have to not only make he or she feel absolute worse you back up your own response by saying not to be harsh or lack of understanding. Saying that is reminding yourself that you are harsh and lack of understanding. People with her own phobias and to add anxiety and depression your response was a big cocktail of “let me make you feel worse”. Shame on you. I don’t know how you sleep good at night making others feel more blame.

[Daesin]

I don’t think your therapist was trying to be mean. Anxiety can make us defensive & truth is often difficult. Try to be open to the advice from your professional mental health provider. They typically are on the right path despite how rocky the road seems right now. Changing is difficult under any circumstances. Accepting their advice, even if it’s not easy to swallow is worth a fair effort. Best of luck.

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Which one is worse? The anxiety coming from waiting for your dad wire you some money to survive or polishing interview skill for a temp job?✌️