I thank anyone in advance for reading this, I just need a place to vent. First a little background. I have been battling depression and anxiety most of my life, I was just diagnosed with PTSD as well. Since July 15 I had been dealing with some health issues, which ended up not being anything. I've been out of work since the first of August. I live in one state work in another and the one I work in doesn't have temporary disability. So the past 10 weeks we have only had my husband's income. Medical bills,in adittion to our regular ones piling up. So needless to say I'm a wreck emotionally. I have been talking with a therapist, and have a televisit with a Psych Nurse to discuss and manage my meds.
One of my triggers is death(I know everyone has issues with it), a friend,family member,pet,someone sick,etc. I do not handle it well. We had a kitten about a year ago, who got into something,made him sick,and passed away at 6 months. It wrecked me. Like holding his urn and sobbing, for months after. I still cry over him. We recently got another, she is 11 weeks. She recently (last couple of days) has had the runs. I called the vet, and they said it may be the chicken we gave her, and if it continues over the weekend to call Monday( she has a wellness appt on Wed). They didn't seem overly concerned, but my anxiety or PTSD is driving me insane. So I may,call tomorrow, she's had it 3 times today. Where she needed a bath twice.I keep thinking something is wrong, my stomach gets upset, then I get the runs, and will sit an cry. I'm really trying to not lose my cool, but it is really hard. My heart breaks to see her sick.
I am going back to work on Monday since being out with the health thing,and I'm nervous that what I felt before will come back. (Was having chest pressure).,Glad to be going back, but apprehensive too. So all of this is weighing heavy on me and I'm really trying to stay calm. If you could, keep us in your thoughts. Thanks for reading if you got this far. 🥺🥴