Inner child

[Starrlight]

In therapy ( I’ve been going off and on since I was 15) I have learned that sometimes we disassociate and act in a way that is because of our inner child’s pain and PTSD. I’ve been feeling hurt and very sensitive lately and trying to heal. I’m happy that I have been working hard at my mental health and have learned so that the abuse doesn’t go on to affect my children. They deserve the best so that’s why I’ve kept working and I hope I am a good enough mom...

...I always knew I was a good mom from the beginning becsuse I loved and cared and put my best efforts toward raising them but lately feel like I’m not a worthy person with all the past abuse and mistakes making their way to the surface for me to face.

It must be time to deal with them and more healing. I hope my therapist can help me with it because i am getting triggered a lot and not sure how to work through all of these strong emotions.

[Florida1959]

Hey darling how are you, remember these times are not normal, and there’s more triggers than in normal tines [whats normal lol ] you have tackled things head on all of your life, so stand up and be proud, You are worthy, you are a fantastic mum, and a lovely person, you have helped me soooooo much, I have never met you yet I love you! 💓❤️ Sister xxxx

[Starrlight in reply to Florida1959]

I love you ❤️ thank you so 🙏 I’m sitting having bursts of cries. I’m so done. I don’t want to wake up again and have another day filled with emotional pain.

[Florida1959 in reply to Starrlight]

Well it’s another day we get to have our friendship, hold onto that, hun xxx

[Starrlight in reply to Florida1959]

And I don’t know how I held up during the school year. Things are easier now in ways but here I am not knowing how I survived and how I will keep going without having a breakdown. I guess you are right in that these are hard times.

[Florida1959 in reply to Starrlight]

It doesn’t matter how you got through YOU DID!,, amazing warrior woman 💓

[Starrlight in reply to Florida1959]

🥰 thank you! You are so sweet.

[Florida1959 in reply to Starrlight]

Sweet, errrr never been called sweet lol 😂

[Starrlight in reply to Florida1959]

😂

[Dolphin14]

I've been doing a lot of inner child work. I'm in two forms of therapy. It's hard to go back and revisit the pain. But I've found that with facing it I'm getting stronger. I've made huge progress.

There are inner child meditations you can try. Kenneth Soares has one that I like. I just keep listening to it over and over. He also has quite a few on letting go of the past. Trying to cut the ties to all the burdens we have carried.

I'm sure you are a great mom. You are aware of the pain and the problems. I think that gives you the strength to be a good parent. You know that you don't want to repeat history.

Continue your work with your therapist. It won't happen overnight but you will make progress.

❤️

[Starrlight in reply to Dolphin14]

I’m glad you can see your work is benefiting you. Thanks for the encouragement. I’m curious what are the two forms of therapy you are using?

[Dolphin14 in reply to Starrlight]

Talk therapy

IFS... it's also called parts therapy. Goggle it. It's very hard to explain but you take an emotion or feeling. Bring it back as far as you can in the past. Talk about what it physically feels like in the body. Why did it start.

Example of mine... anxiety, I feel it in my stomach, looks and feels like a tornado rolling around, when did I first feel it, first grade ( sad) what was the situation. What did I need at the time to feel safe.

What did it do for me at the time. Can I let some of it go. Then you work through that part.

Hope that makes some sense. It has really made a difference in my progress.

[Starrlight in reply to Dolphin14]

Thanks for explaining. I’m glad it made a difference for you!

[Kkimm]

You are a great mum, therapy will help because of all you had to go through in the past.

Kim

[Starrlight in reply to Kkimm]

Thank you so much!!! ❤️

[Hidden]

This is a really hard process, opening up old wounds and revisiting the past, I can tell you it's going to be painful and draining but it's a necessary step and you're a strong woman 🌻

[Starrlight in reply to Hidden]

(((((((((Callmedanielle)))))))))) thank you ... I’ve visited the past before in therapy and I have the feeling it could be time for more work and healing...I don’t want to push it too hard as I want to be able to handle it... I’ll take it slow. How are you doing?