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I’m working w my doctor to wean off current medication that stopped working effectively, and onto new meds. It’s been pretty rough, but today was brutal. I sobbed and was terrified most of the day. Mostly afraid this won’t get better. My Mom spent the day with me because I was afraid to be alone. I’ve been praying a lot and keep reminding myself that I have depression. It’s not something that is my fault or I can control. I have therapy this week and meet w doctor.

Any and all prayers and good thoughts welcomed. I could use some hope 💕

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Keep going Courageovercomfort.

God Bless

xXx

🐥

Thank you Mary.

🙏🏻🌹❤️

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Thank you!!

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Lynl

Switching meds and weaning off others can be rough, I pray things ease up on you. Maybe add an activity that can help taker your mind somewhere else, like a walk, exercise, coffee with someone. A massage. Keep in touch

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c-mac in reply to Lynl

Yes to the massage, and also following slow breathing exercises, which for me have similar effects. Maybe get out in nature with your compnion?

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courageovercomfort in reply to c-mac

I’m not great at breathing exercises, but would like to learn how to use them to help my anxiety.

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c-mac in reply to courageovercomfort

Does this help? Includes an instructional section and my preferred form, 2 Bells. open.spotify.com/playlist/3...

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courageovercomfort in reply to Lynl

Thank you for the reply :) Today was an ok day, which is so much better than yesterday. I was able to make it to work! Thank heavens. I hope this means the new meds are helping.

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4woody

Hi. Am in the midst of getting off ineffective meds myself. Courage over Comfort. I hope you know you can have both at the same time.

When I don’t have people for comfort I use milk and cookies. Girl Scout Cookies are on sale here! I don’t always have the courage I wish I had. I have some. It will have to be enough for now. Glad I only have to do “now”.

Keep talking. I will watch for your reply.

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courageovercomfort in reply to 4woody

Ugh, it’s tough isn’t it?! I have food issues so indulging in sweets is not so great for me, I don’t have an off switch 😏

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4woody in reply to courageovercomfort

I also have a serious sweet tooth. I’ve tricked myself (counselors call it behavioral modification or CBT) by using pretty

little dishes to hold the cookies (3 or4) and then drinking lots of milk. Milk helps me fill full so I’ll stop. This is followed by a distraction that was put in place before the cookie eating begins. Good grief I’m a lot of work! lol. But it works for me

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Boomba76

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 for you!

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courageovercomfort in reply to Boomba76

Thank you!!!!

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CanuckAnon

🤗🤗🤗🌷🌷🌷☀️☀️☀️🧀🥖🥓🌟🌟🌻🌻🌻🌼🌼💕💕💕🍀🍀🍀😊 sometimes a picture is worth a 1000 words. Sending you all my positive energy as I’m going to bed to recharge... 😴😴 take care of you!

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courageovercomfort in reply to CanuckAnon

Many thanks!

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CanuckAnon in reply to courageovercomfort

Hope my energy helped!!! It’s the best I could do... have not prayed in years... sorry

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Churchlady19

Hey Courageovercomfort - I’m right there with you. I was finally getting the anxiety under control but Doc put me on a new med as my depression was not giving up. Was on Cymbalta for 4 days & I honestly thought I was going to die. Almost went to the ER except I couldn’t stay awake or drive! Now the nurse practitioner I’ve been seeing is on vacation, my primary care doc is booked, and the psychiatrist my NP works with is sick! And, of course, I’m constantly questioning myself. Should I have tried longer? Am I ever going to get over this? I’m letting everyone down. Am I going to lose my job? I just want to sleep. It’s the only time I can get my head to just shut up!

It’s awful

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courageovercomfort in reply to Churchlady19

Yes, all of these things I’m questioning myself now “what did I get myself into?!” - it is indeed awful. I cannot wait to get well.

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c-mac in reply to Churchlady19

It does sound awful, and like I felt when I first got on ziprasidone. You know what helped? Hugging small creatures like pets and children. For a moment it makes me feel warm and relaxed, and I remember the place I'm in is temporary. Also what helps me is meditation, in terms of dealing with racing thoughts. Writing in a journal helps in case there are actually any issues to deal with, I can lay it all out in private, and even burn the book afterwards if I want.

Exactly everything you’ve said! I’m thinking all the same things.

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