Over thinking

I am lonely, depressed, and anxious. I don't have many friends and I'm pretty sure I complain about my problems to them far too often. I don't really talk to my mom about it anymore because I have a problem of not taking her advice. Like, she'll give suggestions but I say it won't work for me or I've tried the suggestion once before and it didn't work and I have no motivation to try it ever again.

I came here because of the crisis hotline messaging service thing, but as I've looked at different posts and comments I don't think this is the place for me. I don't know. I just don't really have anyone to talk to anymore. I'm stuck just messaging friends and when none of them get online I'm kinda screwed. Plus I've felt very disconnected from them because they never message me first just to talk or anything. And I'm over think some stuff with my boyfriend. And I just don't want to be depressed anymore. I want to feel excited about things and I want to be happy to get out of bed most mornings. I have therapist and I'm taking antidepressants.

Technically 2017 was probably the best year if my life, I have lots of things to be thankful for, but it honestly felt like the worst.

I'm tired and I jumped around a lot. I'm sorry if anymore has problems reading that. I'm also sorry that it's so long.

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No need to feel bad for a long post! You will find a lot of support here, there are very kind , loving people! Have you gotten any help for your situation? I'm here for you if you need! Sending you a hug! XXX

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I've talked to friends about it, but they can't really help me. I mean they can calm me down, but I still have these problems. I'm also seeing a therapist and taking antidepressants.

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Unless someone has walked in your shoes they have no idea where you're coming from! Talk to your Dr. about how you are feeling! I wish you the best!!!!!!!! XXX

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Thanks

[bkm123]

I can totally relate to everything you are saying...we sound a lot alike ,,,I'm here for you whenever you need someone to talk to

[MorticiaBlue]

Don't feel bad. I have problems expressing myself in fear of being criticized. But i have to remember that we're all here for help and support. Depression is a lonely disease. Not a lot of ppl understand us accept the ones with same diagnosis. You're in a safe place. I don't want to be depressed either. There are days that I can react like " normal" ppl BUT some " normal" ppl aren't that great or undiagnosed. I try to do anything that's suggested to me. At first i didn't because i felt self defeated before I'd attempt. I've improved over the years. I've taken quite a few classes and I'm in a couple of depression support groups thru mental health association in my city. Suggestion- i tend to get overwhelmed when i get a suggestion but I've learned to take one step at a time. Be patient with yourself. And again, you're in the right place💚