My Past

[Princemalik]

I have been struggling with anxiety and depression for a long time but I never knew what it was until few months from now and felt little relief that I am not the only one in the world with this problem. I have been struggling with my past of how my cousin brother fooled me and tried to use me for his own benefit.. I don't know how he enjoyed lying to me every time but I guess that is who he is. When I am alone I get a flash back and it really hurts. I try to make friends here but most of them end up blocking me maybe because I am black and also a Nigerian but I am also human and I am not different from you. We all have similar problems why act different. Anyway I have been working on my self confidence and I am really trying i must confess it is not easy being me.. I am in love with trap songs and some cool music too. I just want to be like other people.. Easy to talk to and make friends but it is hard I don't even know how to try. I don't know how to be a friends with a stranger and it hasn't been easy for me. I get this feeling that I am different and I don't really know why but things are not always as they seems . few years ago I use to be this popular boys that everyone wants to be his friend now I don't understand anymore . I don't even trust people anymore. Just want to feel happy again.

[Hidden]

Hi, I remember you! Forgive me for not knowing, I'm wondering what exactly are trap songs??? Or did you mean to say rap songs? Sorry, I'm a bit confused.

[Princemalik in reply to Hidden]

I am talking about trap songs. You don't know trap songs like seriously.

[ciley in reply to Princemalik]

haha confused? oh dear~~they are more interested in your spelling than you~not confused at all~with you in your isolation and pain

[Hidden]

Hey. I am sometimes friendly. I understand it's very hard to make and keep friends sometimes. I am not an expert. I love good therapy. I am curious what a trap song is so I am about to google this. Hope you feel better soon.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Beautiful! Thanks

[Princemalik in reply to Hidden]

Nice to meet you Andrea .

[shoppaholicsue]

Hi,

Maybe you’re entering into new friendships expecting people to be thinking ‘black’ or ‘Nigerian’ and expecting people to put up barriers because of that. Maybe they’re not- it’s possible that your own expectation of that creates a barrier.

Join a club or group, enrol in a class, you will meet people with similar interests and this can be a good way of finding friends and forming relationships.

Try to let go of how you were used in the past. It must be hard to trust but most people are good- there are a few bad ones!

Sue

[ciley]

going through alsorts of hell myself~let down by everone~i am your friend on here~tho i msy not say much

[Princemalik in reply to ciley]

We are all going through hell that is why we always need each other to feel at ease. It doesn't mean there won't be light .

[ciley in reply to Princemalik]

no~it does not mean there won't be light~sometimes through practice and faith i can raise my consciousness to be in light~not often now~tip ~think about pineal gland upper forehead~

[shoppaholicsue]

Never heard of a trap song btw! 😂

[Hidden in reply to shoppaholicsue]

No, he explained it to me. Trap music is a form of hip hop. It's people like Drake and Future and Lil Wayne. It's a certain style of hip hop and rap.