Hello everyone...We'll I have struggled with anxiety and depression the majority of my life but it seems that after the birth of my last child it has intensified. I wouldn't say it's postpartum depression but simply all of my old demons coming out to haunt me. I thought I had worked through it before and now it is just disheartening that it's back. I see it affecting me in all aspects of life, I feel like I am letting my kids and spouse down because I have no patience or any desire to interact with them. I feel like a complete shell at this point, nothing makes me happy and I hate it because I know I have been truly blessed with a great husband and 3 beautiful children. I simply find myself involuntary unattaching myself from all of them and just wanting to runaway to be alone. I have no energy or drive to wake up but I push myself fir them but I just feel so guilty and awful for my inner feelings. I have tried medication in the past and had a really bad experience and have even tried homeopathic remedies to no avail. I am in no way suicidal or want to hurt anyone I just want to be alone. I am at the point that I really don't know what to do, everything just feels so hopeless.