Olanzapine use for mental illness

[Beautifulsky]

I am not happy that I was forced to take medications while in a psychiatric hospital. I was forced to go to the hospital and once there, I was treated like a sick person who needed forced medications such as injections and pills. I didn't even know why I was there when I was already 3 days into staying there at the hospital. I was given so much psychiatric medications that I felt like my head was in a ballon flying in the air. No the medication didn't make me feel better again. Now after discharge from a monster nightmare of situation disguised of as "care" I was released and allowed to go home again. Once home, I realized I needed time to recover from this stay. It took me a year for the trauma to go down and to come back down to my new normal self while on medication which is Olanzapine/Zyprexa. It's suppose to treat this "mental illness" I was "diagnosed"with by these psychiatrists.

By the way, the top paid profession in California in 2025 is a psychiatrist who make over $200,000 per year from diagnosing and prescribing medications to patients. And in this business model, psychiatrists make money off of you being a life long patient because the fact that mental illnesses are chronic life long diseases that don't go away...this business model works with that fact and is designed to make these doctors rich.

Well, now that I'm on Olanzapine and I have been taking it for 3 years now, I have gained weight, have slurred speech, and I'm not back to my normal self as I was prior to hospitalization. I feel older, slower, and frankly, I'm not more functional now when on medication than I was prior to hospitalization. That's right, the hospital and its *recommendations* for follow-up *care* made my life harder. In their perspective, I will always be labeled sick, and requiring medication. Well, I'm afraid now of getting off this medication by just stop taking it in fear of a relapse and going into any psychosis like before and then being forced back into the hospital by police or paramedics who take any phone calls from concerned witnesses like a mandated reporters if they suspect you're acting strange in public (in my case, I was talking to myself and staying up past curfew)...

So I have remained on this medication despite the fact that I know I'm being preyed on as a victim to medical abuse in this system in the U.S. I believe I lost my liberty as a U.S. citizen to cruel medical abuse. The fact is too that I'm tired of being an ethnicity minority and female here in the U.S. I was raped by 2 strangers before being hospitalized and not one single doctor in the ER asked me about it. In fact, they were only interested in running lab tests. I'm sick? No, they're sick! The medical system has failed.

I would never recommend a psychiatric hospital to anyone experiencing a "mental crisis" because it's not designed for the patient to get better but rather to be experimented with doctors trying new and different medications on you and it's not an exact science to know which medication is going to be suitable to you. I think if you're experiencing a "mental crisis" try to with all your effort go into an an outpatient program where you stay in control of the choices and decisions about your healthcare and what you want for yourself. Unlike, I was FORCED by a 51/50 law here in California, which took away my rights as a U.S. to be treated by healthcare workers. I really hate this system. It's abusive and should be illegal. I never made a 100% recovery from this experience. I'm not better off. I just made some people rich off me. I started off forced into taking Olanzapine and now I'm afraid to get off it in fear of a relapse into psychosis. If I get off of it, does that make me better? No, but I won't have to deal with the side effects of long term use which includes dimentia and other issues.

In California, loved ones (family and friends) need to change the laws regarding psychiatric care for those experiencing mental crisis and mental illnesses. You don't want to experience forced institutionalization and medication. I am apart of NAMI and it helps to know that there are many others out there with the same perspective.