I woke up today with a terrible headache and i feel shaky and anxious, with that lump in my throat yet again. Its probably my body fighting the fluoxetine, i dont know. I really hate being me, i hate the people that have done harm to me in my past that have contributed to me being the way i am. I dont want to be like this anymore, i need to be strong again like ive always been, but there was only so much a person could take out of life before they went down. My job which i loved, is no more, because of my illness it was too dangerous for me to stay there, im so sad about that, and hate myself even more for being so weak and now im isolated yet again.