Im so tired of feeling like this. Take it away from me....

[smudge2013]

Bn off sick with stress, anxiety, again, try to get docs appt this morning, fiance away to work, i can see from his face that hes fed up, i got upset yest as was haviing a bad day, angry at smallest thing, i forgot something, he hold me colse and Sand wish he cld take it away from me, we love eachother so much, Im soo sickfeeling like this......i hate bn n my down head.....ffeel like Im behind a Glass door looking in at everyone n fast mode.....like Im n a neverending dream...........am i losing my mind......Im scared....to tell doctor everthing Im feeling and how bad i am feeling invase he she Tello me something i dont want to hear, grrr.......

[Anxietyang]

OMG you just don't know how much that sounds like me and my other half the week before last! I was exactly the same and thought I was going mad and the doc would do something drastic but needless to say they didn't and since last Monday the fog lifted and the anxiety and panic had subsided. You'll get through it and out the other side. Do you know what triggered it? X

[smudge2013 in reply to Anxietyang]

Thankyou for your reply. Work triggered it i think. Have demanding job as fulltime carer. We are understaffed alot of the time, tho aparantly we are fully staffed and working to the correct ratio. Huh. Im also doing my svq3 senior traininMeant to be being mentored by nurse,but they never get 5 minutes, not practical to get the right training and guidance, so Its mixture of stress anxiety, niw depression, bn lookn for a diff kind of job, retail,something less demanding,less doom and gloom,but frightening thought then Im feeling like this. Im only 30, recently engaged,got a new puppy,supposed to be planning for future,wedding,Kids,thought job promotion wld make things better,moake things happen quicker,my head just feels so scrambled,feeling like i dont no who i am anymore,upsetting aspettino me wriaiting this x

[MB1989 in reply to Anxietyang]

Anxietyyang

Do you also get fog like you cant think straight and feel like you are not there in the oresent? Even sometimes find it hard to find words to say.

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Hi Smudge,

First of all you are not losing your mind it's the anxiety that is doing this to you.

Anxiety effects people in lots of different ways and I am sure the doctor hears lots of different symptoms from paitents . The doctor is not there to make you feel worse but to help you and I would hope he would listen to you and understand you have anxiety.

Try to take this time of work to get other support as well from your doctor, say CBT or counselling.

keep posting on here for support and we will all try to help and support you through this difficult time, it will past.

Gardener x

[smudge2013]

Thankyou for your reply. U battled depression before,10 yrs ago,triggered by the loss of my gran & godfather within 6 months,iqestioned my faith,but i dont recall having anxiety. I had bad thoughts.

[Anxietyang]

We all have odd thoughts. The week before last I had a recurring thought about being bitten by a dog. Odd but true. Let us know how the docs goes. X

[aubergine]

Nothing to do with you but feeling really rough myself. Getting so tired of it all. Want to get on with my life but always seems to be something in the way. Know for a fact that negative thinking doesn't help but unfortunately that was the way I was made. Have Pschizoaffective Disorder and a drug problem.Working through it but I really don't know how. Thank you for being there xx

[auralius]

we force ourselves to do too much whilst other people push us to do too much,,,the important thing is quality of life and to do things in the right order,,,it is not your fault that the nurse is too busy to mentor you,,,you can go to the supervisor but in this case I do not think it would work and you should think seriously of moving on,,,I also would not consider marriage and kids until you have got your personal life sorted out,,we are surrounded by all sorts of hedonistic rubbish that we do not need,,,you have the right to be here and to live your life within your limits,,try to stay off drugs/medication,,you do not need them,,,it is society which places too many demands on us,,this causes a defence reaction in our bodies which is normal and is a warning to change our lifestyles and back off from a society gone mad.

[gatita]

We are on the same boat.. Anxiety is a real monster. Im 30 too, but no career, no marriage/kids plans..no work.just the monster.

Take care. You will be fine

[gatita]

How to stay off meds? We cant change the society..so SSRI dont work?

[laineyc13]

Hey smudge try not worry about hubby to be,he just wants you to be happy so when you find your ways of coping with stress and anxiety praise yourself and that will rub off on him. My sexual relationship with hubby has majorly changed for the worst since my anxiety started,I feel he really doesn't understand how exhausting anxiety is so sex is back of my mind,he thinks the alternative I can see it in his eyes when he moans about it,making me feel inadequate. My main focus is how to deal with each day so I can get my motivation and fun Back xxx