Hey guys. This is my first posts so I apologise if it doesnt make sense.
Im 20 years old and 32 weeks pregnant with my first child. Cut a long story short I was told I was infertile so it came as a bit of a shock. The babies dad left cause hed prefer to take drugs and I am in a new relationship but my anxiety is crippling me!
My partner had to leave his last job because I was too scared of being alone and now its got to the point where I cant even go to the local shop without him. Every time he has to leave the house without me I break down and cry until hes back I hate it! Ive always been a really self conscious person and have struggled with anxiety and panic attacks all my life but its never been this bad.
im questioning my abilities as a mother even though its all ive ever wanted.
I dont trust anyone any more not even my partner. I go through his phobe every night! And I hate myself for it.
being like this is making me feel so low and I dont know what to do. Im getting really scared that im always going to be this paranoid nervous freak.
Can anyone help me?