Update on Zoloft / health anxiety

Hey folks,

I took it upon myself to grab Claire Weeke’s ‘Hope and Health For Your Nerves’ on Audible and it’s been helpful.

I feel like I’m running out of body parts to obsess over. And Zoloft side effects do freak me out, so I decided to taper off. I saw an OB-GYN today who also works with mental health and talked to professionals who suggested cutting it in half for one week and then taking every other day for a week. Since doing so two days ago, I’ve been feeling more normal-ish, but also have random short periods of feeling hyper. It’s weird and I’m not a fan. Sometimes I feel down or just zombie-ish.

But - I’m trying to stop keeping myself from standing in the way of my recovery. I have a follow up appointment with my neurologist on the 30th. The random mind pops and dream recalls do freak me out but I think they are anxiety related. I had numerous questions with a psychiatrist and psychotherapist, and they both just said my anxiety was through the roof. I was so afraid of losing my mind or being epileptic or something.

It’s so easy to hyperfocus on how Zoloft makes me feel when I’m already focused on my body! It just makes me feel super weird, like my head is somewhere else and I get constant depersonalization. It’s weird. I’m hoping the next two weeks are good and that I can conquer my anxiety with more natural techniques as I taper off.

I have been doing progressive relaxation to fall asleep, and meditation. I did meditation this morning again.

Oh - one thing that came up. My thyroid TSH has been a little high. Everything else is normal. My ob-gyn does not think it’s contributing to my anxiety but said I may need to go on thyroid medication if I want to get pregnant. I’m not there yet but it’s good to know! She’s running a few more tests to double check.

Anyway - I can’t wait to feel like me again. I have a big trip planned in July and August with my boyfriend to Pennsic (haha is anyone else going??? I’m so excited) and my dream is to lay under the stars with him and feel nothing but happiness and forget about my hypochondria forever.

❤️