Severe anxiety, decided to get help

[Formula1fan]

I have always had anxiety but not life altering. A few years ago it started to escalate but I kept it to myself not wanting to be a burden, bad idea. It just kept getting worse and then panic attacks started, then lack of sleep magnified everything. Fear hit me and everything changed, I did not feel I could ask for help. The fear spun into anger and my emotions spiraled so far out of control I could not think straight and by now was unhelpable. Finally all these emotions came flooding out in what was described as a nuclear explosion of anger where I completely lost control of myself in what was a really horrible scene. I knew immediately this was beyond bad and I could not fix it, change it and I will forever regret my actions. I sat in room alone and thought "I cannot believe what things have come to, how did this happen" and I realized continuing like this would lead to my destruction and possibly someone getting hurt. I decided right there to get some professional help and start opening up about what I have been experiencing with everyone. As soon as I starting talking about these things I immediately felt better. I felt a weight lift off my body almost immediately. I wish I had opened up long ago because I suffered for years in silence and it was necessary.

If anyone is experiencing paralyzing anxiety please talk to someone, I found it so helpful. I found out I was not alone and everyone has been understanding.

I hope by sharing my story there is someone that can benefit from my mistakes.

[Agora1]

Formula1fan, you did justice to this caring open community. We all struggle in our

own ways. Never could we believe that sharing our troubles takes so much off our

shoulders but it does.

I'm glad you reached out to therapy. We may not be doctors or therapists but just

another person struggling with the same issues who understands.

Thank you for your positive reinforcement post in helping others do the right thing

for themselves. Continued success my new friend. xx

[Formula1fan in reply to Agora1]

Thanks so much...you can respond again because it posted twice😁

[Starrlight in reply to Formula1fan]

And I am so glad you had weight lifted from you as you shared what is going on inside your mind. Blessings to you

[Starrlight]

I’ve also acted in ways I’m not proud of, out of fear, and out of anger and because of bipolar. But I try to look at each incident as a learning experience and I dont know if I’ll be out of control again but I’m in control now and trying to live in the present moment the best I can, and that’s all we can do.

[Qalba]

Aa I read your words, I honestly thought I had written them! When I threw popcorn at the movie theater last fall because I they would not salt my popcorn, I finally starting seeing a mental health counselor. She is helping so much. Thank you for posting. Yes, fined help. If the first therapist is not right for you, find another one. No doubt that rls exacerbates our anxieties and fears even to the point of suicidal ideation. Thank you for sharing!