Hi I believe I suffer from social anxiety as well as general. I've just been to my gp (finally, I'm now 28 and have been suffering all my life) and have been given contact details to see a specialist. I feel better now I've taken a step forward and can let this all out as I've never talked to anyone about this, but I also feel reluctant that anything could help this for me, as it feels ME now. I can't imagine taking everything with a pinch of salt, never getting worried and building things up, avoiding things, arriving At an interview still worried and nervous but Atleast been able to get there and talk. It's shaped my life and restricted it in so many ways, work, relationships, friendships. I'm just looking for support really and reassurance that others are going through similar feelings and that I'm not alone, and to ask what if any help anyone here's been offered that's improved things for them? Medication? Cbt? Does anyone believe theirs has began from a event in particular? And to also ask if anyone who has something similar finds that they are fine In certain situations ie if it's a smaller group of people or I personally find if someone is overly quiet /shy I feel more confident, is that normal? I'd like to hear other peoples thoughts and story's too
I've always been overly worried about everything, I read far too much into things and my main fear really Is receiving attention been looked at (this is why one to one is better for me, but even then I struggle ) familiar things are always better. I always make excuses for family meals , I have a fear of answering the phone even to family members (anyone other than my mum and dad) I've pushed friend after friend away, and any boy I've liked and talked to I've ran a mile when they suggest meeting. I feel like I can't possibly go on like this forever.
I always feel like I'm being watched, it's not just fear of big events or changes like interviews, driving tests ect that I more than struggle with (I suspect most people worry about these type of events in some way) it's everything.. Walking in front of people is a huge one, the thought of a birthday party been arranged for myself and having all eyes on me scares me, I'm terrified of planning a party for my toddler, I get all the physical signs of anxiety.. This mainly when something big or different comes up, but the intense fear comes daily like Going to the shops ect. I've never been on a date as I don't think I could actually bring myself to going when the time came around and I'd be unable to sleep. This has obviously had an impact on the type of relationships I have had. If anything I feel my anxiety has become worse with age, in ways. Yesterday and today I've been sat here with my heart pumping out of my chest worried sick (but there's nothing that should have me worried like this, no birthday party's coming up, meeting friends, events, nothing at all. It's started to just appear from nothing. Is this normal. Thankyou