Everything is getting worse. Last night I went to bed crying to my husband about the way I feel. He says I'm just going through a chapter in my life and everything will get sorted out soon. I am not so sure about that. It is coming up on 2 years that this anxiety mess has struck. It has been an up and down roller coaster, somedays I'm great... I go out and go shopping... I clean my house... and for the most part my symptoms are not there. But oh 80% of the time im miserable, this is ruining my life. I am so tired... I ache... i constantly have heart palpitations...my chest is always burning. Yesterday I went out to try to do some things in my yard and I felt so weak and tired, I can back in and laid down. I am 26.. I shouldn't feel like this. I have a 6 year old and a 3 year old... I want to go to thier school and be there for them, play with them, but it is so hard when you feel so terrible. My husband bought me a gym membership... They have massage beds there and he thought it would help me get out and about. I can't even go, I feel too bad... I'm too exhausted to excersise and I've went from 120 to almost 140 lbs. I don't even recognize myself. I spend most days at home,cleaning my house, laying in bed, checking my bp too make sure I'm okay bc I feel like my chest pain is my heart... even though I've had normal ekgs and xrays awhile back. It is a miserable way to live honestly.
I went from feeling awesome, looking awesome, I used to work in a good hospital as a nurse assistant. Now I'm just wasting away. I don't know what to do. I take klonopin .5mg a day. I've tried quitting it over and over and have failed. I have tried anti depressants and failed.
There's no hope for me