It'd mean so much if anyone with expericence could take some time to read this
Okay so, I've anxiety yeah, but thing is that, I don't believe it's anxiety thats doing this to me and causing all of my symptoms!
I've been scare of pretty much everything for as long as I can remember and every little change or pain makes me wanna freak out.
I was recently diagnosed with ADHD while I had an ongoing depression.
I've also had anxiety and panic attacks since the age 11.
But this time, I just can't believe it's anxiety. My symptoms are so bad I feel like giving up and dying. I don't know what to do no more.
I quit school cos of depression and just tired of everything in general.
Ive been seeing a psychiatrist for about a year now but when I first started I was free from anxiety and I hadn't had it for 1 year.
I've been playing pc games since I was 11 and it's always been a subconscious stress. I spent over 11 hours a day at my pc and talking to random people I've met over the internet.
When, half a year ago I quit and started going out more, my depression came. I noticed I have 'social anxiety' and felt like I didn't belong in the real world.
My mum thinks this could be the reason of my depression but i don't know.
Today, I've been suffering from anxiety for about 1 month.
It all started with upper abdomen pain, hunger pain, which most likely is gastritis.
Then one night I woke up in the middle of the night, sweating with a awful stomach ache.
I was scared of dying from it.
And it came back about 5 days in a row before it went away.
I was so scared I had stomach cancer but my mums a nurse and she said I don't. But I wouldn't believe it.
Symptoms Ive had the past 3 weeks:
Pressure in head, no ache just some weird pressure. ( I woke up yesterday in the middle of the night by my head twitching and eyes flicking. I could stop it, so I thought it could be some for of stress. Following with a panic attack.)
Heating in my head
Constant pressure in my chest that only goes away when I lay down
Stabs in my side(only had it twice but I had a horrible panic attack when I first felt it.)
Feels like I'm gonna faint.
Ok so, my therapist gave me antidepressants and I'm on my 5th day, I don't feel any difference but I've heard it takes about 2-4 weeks for them to help.
BUT, thing is that, my biggest problem right now: When I wake up in the morning, I feel really ill and hunger pains. I think the hunger pains are my gastritis but I can't stand it!!
I think the nausea has gotten worse since I stared taking the pills. (Sertraline 25 mg)
I can't handle the pain and the nausea is so bad I've thrown up and I have no appetite.
And of course I'm soo scared I'm gonna die from this!!
Doctors and therapists says I have no signs of physical illness but I just can't believe it!! I keep thinking I have a brain tumor and stomach cancer..
(No diseases run in the family)
I really want to quit taking these pills if there's any possibility it could be them causing my nausea. But my parents and therapists think I should continue. Do they even understand how much pain I'm going through?? Could this really be anxiety?? IM SO SCARED OF DYING.
ive read about people with anxiety and their symptoms but I've never heard anyone with symptoms like mine I feel like if my symptoms would go away I would be fine.
I also have a cousin which have had it worse than me. I use to talk to him and for a start it helped, but nowadays, no one can calm me
I had tests before it got worse, about 5 months ago when having chest pressure but the results came back negative. And now I want to have more tests but doctors and my parents don't think it's nessecary.
I also have really bad hypochondria and my fear of dying is stupid.
For the past 2 days I've felt better in the evening, even all good, like I've never had anxiety before.
But then I take my pill at night and then when I wake up the next morning I feel awful.