Neeeeed reassurance please!! I feel so terrible lately.

I moved out and Im always sick and lightheaded and derealised and anxious out of my mind. Literally feel like Im on acid all the time. I can ignore it sometimes but it definitely still affects how i act. Im tapering off of imipramine right now. I hate being in my new house. I dont want my roommates to know how crazy i am/feel. Im sad and anxious here all the time and I have dread 24/7 in the pit of my stomach thinking im going to die. Yes Im seeing a therapist and yes im seeing a psychiatrist and yes im using techniques and yes Ive listened to claire weeks and yes Ive tried floating through it. What else can I do now??? Please? Am i gonna have this forever?? Ive had it for 5. f***ing. years. Nothing has helped and now it feels like its getting worse. All of my friends are drinking and partying anx enjoying their jobs and the new house and I cant even put into words how miserable I feel.

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And im on medication but nothing has ever worked so Im getting off of it.

[Dennison]

I dont know if this will help at all...but I was feeling horrible one night and I just had to think about some of my old passions and I remembered ive always love outer space...So now if im feeling anxious depressed mad etc, I watch a documentary and then i forget somethings and i kind of feel content, safe, cozy, like a hug from your mom or something.

Maybe think of something you use to love, something maybe you havent watched in a long time....it may sound like that old movie with Martin Lawrence (or older actor of your choosing) that you use to like would be boring now...but try it...I did and it helps a bit.

Youll find some peace, takes time