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State of panic

I'm literally in a state of panic. I'm starting to sit and think this is NOT anxiety at all! Just to recap my recent life events. Woke up thinking I had strep throat turns out that was negative I wound up in the ER. Was told my air way was getting blocked because my tonsils were swelling for no reason. Had my tonsils taken out in August 2017. Then I got shingles was on meds for that got better. Well I thought I did! I woke up one day in December and thought "damn I must of bit down on my tongue in my sleep" chalked it up to nothing. Days go by it doesn't get any better. Now in January I go to my Drs I see his assistant. She says oh I might have a shingles flare up again because my tongue feels like it's being shocked and my face as well. This is constantly pain. No relief. So I wind up googling (of course) I come across something called Trigeminal Neuralgia!! I go straight to the ER. They say eh sounds like it. Here's some prednisone. No relief. I again start googling and found out there's something called Glossopharyngeal Neuralgia. This effects the throat and it's the 9th cranial nerve. Could I have solved and diagnosed myself? These Drs don't listen to s**t!! I'm over it I'm angry but most of all I'm petrified because I'm a mother of 2 boys who are my world. They don't have father's so all this pressure is on me. I'm so scared it's cancer or a tumor and I'm going to leave them parent less. My mom doesnt give two s**ts less about me and only cares about herself and her husband. My boyfriend just stares at me and doesn't know what to say or to do. I have a Drs appointment yet again tomorrow and I just don't know what to do. Please someone just help me!!! I'm literally driving myself insane!!

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I’m sorry you are so worried about your condition. Maybe you can have the dr do a blood test to rule out cancer when you go tomorrow so you can calm down some. In the meantime try and tell yourself it’s not likely anything serious. I know it’s easier said than done, buy at least try and do some deep breathing. Our minds automatically want to focus on the worst case scenario when logically it’s usually not the case at all. Plus googling will have you dying from your symptoms. I can’t imagine what your tongue is feeling like, but if you are having pain try and take some ibuprofen, or Tylenol to relieve the pain some. I can see how your mind won’t focus on anything except where you are in pain.

I also know that most Dr.s these days won’t really listen. I feel like they have a time limit for each patient which consists of about 5 minutes for the whole appointment.

I hope you get some answers on your next appointment sweetie. Keep us posted.

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Thank you so much! I've tried both pain meds and nothing. I'm up to 6 extra strength Tylenol today and it just doesn't seem to do any justice. I know it's mind over matter but it's like I can't focus on anything but this issue. I had blood tests done back in August and everything came back good. I just want an MRI done of my brain so I can finally say there's nothing there but a brain.

You're right Drs just are in such a rush anymore it's sad! Like I'm in so much pain and you don't even care! I was reading up on impacted wisdom teeth( which I have) & people said it may be that as well. I'm starting to think I'm making my symptoms more severe then they are but then again am I?

I just wanna watch my kids grow up and be a mom. These past few days I've been pushing everyone away because of this pain. & When I talk to someone they give me these dumb ur ok, relax, stop googling you issues answers. I need someone who is going to be like ok let's find this out together!

I feel so alone anymore 😪

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victoria, U are driving yourself crazy! Dont go down that path. You are not going to be much help to your kids if your a wreck emotionally. Not to mention the kids see you like that and they get concerned too. So as the saying goes, you need to get a grip and stop and pull it together. Breath and take deep breaths. Not everything is what it seems. Maybe you have something but it may not be serious. Ive been where you are and understand totally. Everything thats on the internet med. sites does not fit you per say! Let the docs do their business and give it a chance. The shingles can be from all the worrying you do. Panicing only makes the throat worse too. I feel for ya but you need to take it one thing at a time and just pay attention to your kids and everything will work itself out. Your not dieing just panicing. Go and relax and take a warm shower or put cold ice pack on your neck. You will be ok and keep telling yourself that!

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Thank you! I took a bath and applied a warm compress to no relief. I'm as calm as I can get but I just can't trust these Drs with my life ( literally). I know your right about the throat thing but it doesn't hurt per say. It's more like an irritating itch. Like you swallowed a cactus( honestly)!

I'm trying so hard to remain calm but I just feel like I have a expiration date set on me and it's quickly approaching.

I know Google is no good and I should stop but why is it that when I go to an ER they agree and say yes I'm right! Shouldn't they of down more tests rather then just touch me and say here's steroids bye?!

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well, they are much more experienced with this then us. I would give it some time. Also, the itchy throat thing can also be caused by allergies too. My son cannot eat certain fruit like melons without having that feeling. May or maynot be like yours. But, something to consider. If they are not that concerned, you should not be either. U did what you can do. As far as a expiration date...We all have that dont we?! lol...I mean, ya, we all want to stick around for our family and kids but its in gods hands. You cannot solve something that your not capable of solving. Like that saying goes... Worrying is a waste of time. It doesn't change anything. It messes with your mind and steals your happiness.

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Its not allergies I know that feeling all to well. I wish it were that honestly. It doesn't seem like Drs care at all about anything. Everything is either an IDK or here's meds with my Dr. I feel like if I go in there and say give me Xanax they would. I could probably open up my own pharmacy with my Dr providing me the drugs.

I know we all have an expiration date but I want to spend as much as I can with my kids but this pain us relentless. I know the fact that I Google it hours out of a day isn't helping but I want relief. I'm tired of waiting.

I'm trying to stop worrying but it's so hard to. I have now dragged my research into thinking it's my impacted wisdom teeth. I seen an oral surgeon today who said yes the are impacted but we don't know if that is what's causing the pain. It could be both, impacted teeth and trigeminal neralgia, or one or the other or none at all. So this made me get scared and once again panic. If I could just mute the shocking sensation I'd be ok. But that is not happening. I guess we shall see what the Drs say again tomorrow.

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I understand. listen, anxiety will make you feel like a basket case. Its happened to me but do yourself a favor, dont get dragged down by it. Your kids are the most important thing outside of yourself so be easy on yourself and nothing lasts forever so things will get better. Just do what you can and stay calm, it will help!

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Thank you. Hopefully today goes well and I get answers.

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I’m stumped. I’ve never had anything like what you have but I had a neurological condition when I went through chemotherapy. I was given neurontin. It helped a little bit but it was better than nothing. Good luck and God bless. Please keep us informed and don’t let the anxiety get you down (I know, easier said than done).

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That's what I want the Dr to prescribe me today. I did alot of research on TN and neurontin is a good drug for it. I just need answers.

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What answers do you want?

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Oh I got my answers. They think it's MS. I need an MRI

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Ive had bad experiences with doctors and my husband doesnt know what to say sometimes. Your boyfriend probably wishes he could help you but doesnt know how. Sorry about your parents, maybe or hopefully they dont mean to be that way. I hope you get some answers and relief

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Hey. So I got my answers today. Not the ones I was hoping but answers. I gotta get an MRI done but they think it's MS

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Im am so very sorry. Are your parents supportive now i hope???

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My dad passed away years ago so it's only my mom left and nope not at all.

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Really im so sorry hun. I hope it helps that atleast people here care about you ♡ im about at the end of my rope as well with anxiety, every second of the day is pure torture. I dont have parents either, just a very few friends and no family

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