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Okay so I'm making this post in a desperate attempt to find out what's going on. I literally can't take this anymore.

I've come down with an illness and I don't know what it is, I went to the doctors, my blood pressure is fine, no fever, I've had my throats checked and nothing seems out of the ordinary, and bloods came back normal.

So here's my symptoms:

•feeling of a swollen throat

•feeling like something is lodged in my throat

•feeling like something is strangling me

•feeling sick in the throat

•struggling to eat (I can swallow fine but it's like my body doesn't really want food)

•loss of appetite

•dry throat

•throats muscles seem to spasm every now and again

•it's also hard to sleep at night

I've had this for a week, I don't know what to do and it's taking a toll on my mental health. I can't even speak about it without wanting to cry because I'm so fed up! I haven't been able to go to work, I don't know what to do, and at this point I'd rather be dead than feel like this😐 It sounds stupid but at this point I'm debating going to hospital and begging them to do something because I just can't deal with this anymore.

If anyone has any idea what it might be, please let e know, I just can't do it anymore!!

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Johnnie1234

Hey wassup we basically have the same sympthoms i seen alot of docters they say im fine blood work everything is fine basically here are my sympthoms muscle spasms daily every where even by my heart it worries me , my body hurts , i get shortness of breath or feel like im holding my breath with out even knowing sometimes , random wierd heart rate somtimes it can jump really fast then really slow that i can barely feel it beating , shaky hands , vision dream like or unreal like really bad feelings like im just going die or stop breathing or have a heart attack i been this way for 5 months after having a bad expeince with weed had a massive panick attack my heart was racing i couldnt calm down at all and never been the same after then and sense that day i stoped smoking and i still feel this way i have all types of sympthoms that i never experinced before and its a daily thing but hope you understand yours not really that bad how mines is trust me and im not taking meds or anything i been trying to cope with it

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Amie9 in reply to Johnnie1234

I feel you. I get hot sweats at night also. I smoke cannabis but haven't smoked anything for a week because my body won't let me because of my throat. My heart rate seems to go up too. Sometimes in the night I notice I've stopped breathing involuntarily, but I'm still awake at that point so I force myself to breathe. I just can't cope. Before I wrote this, my boyfriend asked how I felt and even she saw me nearly cry, I just can't do it! It's really messing with my body and my mind. I feel completely useless. I feel perfectly fine other than the throat issues, the hot sweats at night and the shaking of my hands and my heart rate. I don't know what to do. About 4 months ago, I had an illness similar to what I have now, but it was 100x worse and I ended up bed bound for 3 weeks. I never ate, I would sweat non stop etc.

It's not that bad the second time around but as soon as I get under the covers, I'm sweating like I'm in the Sahara desert. I sit in the bathroom wondering I I'm going to throw up or not, I'm literally living on minimal food and water and tea. I have no idea what to do, I'm literally breaking down and if it goes on for much longer, I don't know what will happen!! I'm just too tired to do anything anymore, I'm too down to even be happy or smile. I feel literally useless.

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Johnnie1234 in reply to Amie9

Look dont feed your anxiety at all try to focus on other things then your throat and feeling like that because if not you going drive your self crazy and i notice that trust me i been through worst and till this day i feel the same but i try to cope with it as much as i can because if not then you want to go to the hospital all the time if the docters dont find anything at all then that means nothing really wrong with you it could bw your mind playing tricks on you remember you are control of your body dont let your head take over because it would do alot of wierd things and physical synpthoms that you think you are dying when you really not but also if you want check with a docter that can check your throat like speacial list or something then after that you really know if its your head or its really your throat to me its sounds like your worried alot about and really nervous so right now your tense you dont know what to do and this when your mind try to take over remember you are control of your own body dont let it take it over ou because it can get worst

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Amie9 in reply to Johnnie1234

I don't think it's on my head though. I know something's actually wrong but I don't know what. I try not to focus on it but it's hard, especially at night when I can't sleep. I don't really know what to do. The doctor wants me to go back and see if she can run more tests. I can't exactly ignore it because it's stopping me from working, I have to be sitting down in order to feel okay. I can't even go out with friends because of it. I'm tired, fed up and want my life back. The only time I feel okay is when I'm asleep. I can't even eat an ice cream, because now I'm sat in the bathroom hoping I don't throw up😕 I'm hitting breaking point and I don't know how much longer I can go feeling like this until I just snap.

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Agora1

Hi Amie9, I do have an idea for you short of wanting to be dead. I too had the exact same symptoms as you have. I'm sure there are many on this forum who can relate to that feeling. Like anyone else with anxiety, it became an obsession first thing in the morning and through out the day. I did cry but it only made my throat tighten. (Gee now I can't even cry) I felt as if food wouldn't go down (although it did) I feared I'd choke (I didn't)

As push came to shove and I felt I couldn't handle this any longer, my doctor ordered a simple swallowing test. As easy as it comes...3 different foods to eat while an xray type gadget watched the food being swallowed and going down the esophagus. (I watched as well) The food started out pureed and then a cream of wheat consistency and finally a cracker. The results was NORMAL..

Next I was sent to a Speech Pathologist who taught me how to relax those throat muscles with massage and other techniques. Anxiety was once again behind the tight muscles. The rest is history. I not only can eat again but never had that feeling again. Knowing is healing. I now can eat anything I desire without a hitch. Maybe asking your doctor for this simple swallow test may help get rid of the fear you have in accepting it is anxiety. Good Luck x

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Amie9 in reply to Agora1

I just want it to stop. I can't even eat ice cream now. Like, I can swallow just fine, but my stomach isn't agreeing with anything I eat. The ice cream I ate 2 hours ago is made me 10x worse than before. I'm also starting to get pains in my side. I feel even worse than I did when I posted this....I'm considering going to the hospital at this point...i feel like something's seriously wrong!

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Agora1 in reply to Amie9

Amie9, Any one on this forum would be the last person to suggest you ignore your symptoms if you so feel that something is wrong. Let us know what you decide. The choice is always in your hands. x

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Amie9 in reply to Agora1

I just don't know if it's worth going to the hospital about or waiting...but at the same time I don't really wanna wait..

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Agora1 in reply to Amie9

That wait time has kept me out of the ER so many times. I know what you mean. Unless it's life threatening, you are going to be asked to wait. Wish you well in your decision. x

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Amie9 in reply to Agora1

I know, my boyfriend said we may have to wait a while but if this carries on, il wait. I've got asthma as well so I'm concerned that this may affect it. My boyfriend wants me to wait until tomorrow before taking me to the hospital if I'm not better and he's gone to get me something to eat to see if it helps, but I don't know what to do, I'm literally afraid of eating now😕 If I get worse tonight, il have to ring the NHS helpline to see if they suggest me going to the hospital or not.

Thank you x

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Angela84

Hi amie9 I posted same thing yesterday but I've been this way for 5 weeks I've had a camera down my stomach found nothing and one down my nose apparently I have LPR they said but I haven't been able to eat food for 5 wks every thing has to be liquid!!!

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Amie9 in reply to Angela84

I've only had a blood test and a urine test done. I had something similar 4-5 months ago, but it was a lot worse. I just can't take it anymore, I don't know what to do...I need to find out what is causing this, I'm just constantly tired and I've rarely eaten this week.

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Amie9 in reply to Angela84

Angela, may I ask what LPR is??

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Angela84 in reply to Amie9

Silent reflux it effects ur voice box and damages ur throat without u knowing about it . I also smoked weed for a long time and have abused my body with bulimia . It just started 1 day and have been unable to eat since !!!!

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Amie9 in reply to Angela84

I've smoked weed for about 4-5 years......now that's concerning..

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Angela84 in reply to Amie9

Me for about 15 yrs and I have lost a stone the last 5 wks u need to go and see a ent doctor to look in ur throat .

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Amie9 in reply to Angela84

I would but sadly it being the weekend means I can't do anything right now. I'm getting more concerned now because I've noticed my heart beats really hard when I stand up or walk somewhere...

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Angela84 in reply to Amie9

Go to a & e and explain all theses symptoms your having and be dramatic if u have to but be heard they will get a ent doctor to look at u I'm only small myself and could not afford to lose any weight u need a full blood count as well u will be deficient in vit b12 most likely because ur not getting what u need food wise . I'm waiting for a barium swallow test to see why I can't swallow food I just don't think it's stress or LPR as I've never suffered with either so I'm going to persist on having every test I can until I get answers please don't give up go to a&e Hun

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Amie9 in reply to Angela84

My boyfriend is on the phone to the NHS advice line now, to see what I should do, I'm afraid to eat, im just waiting for him to finish on the phone and tell me what they say, I've written him a list of my symptoms so he can tell them exactly what's wrong. I've not eaten much the last 3 days, I've just not had the appetite,I'm just concerned because I can't put on weight as it is and I lose weight more than I put it on so me being unable to eat makes my situationworse

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Angela84 in reply to Amie9

Keep it touch Hun hope u can get some help x

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Amie9 in reply to Angela84

And thank you x

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Amie9 in reply to Angela84

I've spoken to them and they'll be phoning back with advice very soon. I hope they figure out what's wrong and the best way to deal with it

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Amie9 in reply to Angela84

I also have weight problems so I'm about 2 1/2 stone underweight

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Amie9

Thought I'd put an update here.

So I'm going to see a GP in the hospital in half hour, hopefully I can get this sorted and at least feel better before bed. Fingers crossed they find out what's wrong.

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Agora1 in reply to Amie9

Good Luck Amie9 Let us know x

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Amie9 in reply to Agora1

I just came back. They said my right tonsil is slightly swollen and that everything else seems to be okay..it's weird how one slightly swollen tonsil can cause so many problems! I was advised to take some painkillers, and the tonsils swelling may go down. If not, I have to go to the GP and get some antibiotics!x

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Agora1 in reply to Amie9

Thank you Amie for letting us know. I'm sorry you aren't feeling good. Get well soon. x

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Amie9 in reply to Agora1

Well I'm starting to feel better already, so soon might be sooner than I thought! Lol x

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Agora1 in reply to Amie9

Great to hear Amie9. Sending good wishes your way. x

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Amie9 in reply to Agora1

Thank you, I'm just re-medicating and hoping for the best..lol x

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Lm92

Swollen tonsils are no fun and they can feel like a horrible lump in the throat. A lot of times that can be caused by sinus drainage/post-nasal drip which can also cause nausea and poor appetite as it drains down your throat. Feeling that lump can also make you anxious (I know it does that to me) and causes my throat muscles to tighten and make everything feel worse. Warm tea will be wonderful to help relax things. I'm not surprised that the ice cream is hard to swallow because sometimes that freezing temperature causes muscle spasms. I hope you feel better very soon.

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Amie9 in reply to Lm92

Haha, tell me about it. It felt horrible!! After some dispesable aspirin though, I'm feeling quite a bit better! Ususally I wake up and I don't feel too great but I'm not feeling like that this morning! I'm going to take some more aspirin later and go see my doctor tomorrow to make sure I don't need antibiotics. Hopefully the swelling has gone down. It feels like it's gone down a bit, so hopefully I may not even need to go to my doctor.

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Amie9 in reply to Lm92

I also drank a ton of tea lol, all I've drank for the past week is bottled water and tea! It helped coat my throats when it was feeling dry

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Finglas-Boy

Hi Amie9, Was gonna say: "Hope you're well" but I guess that's a bit stupid! This hasn't kicked off as a "Gastro-something" & gotten progressively worse? Had some (not all) your symptoms a couple of months back & it literally floored me for 3+ weeks. Dr said it had originated as an enteritis type bug which got worse coz I didn't see him soon enough. Go to your doc my friend!

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Amie9 in reply to Finglas-Boy

I'm making an appointment tomorrow. My right tonsil ended up swollen and caused all the symptoms I had. I took some dispersable aspirin and I'm starting to feel better already!

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Amie9 in reply to Finglas-Boy

I know what you mean about being floored for 3+ weeks though. I was the same 4 months ago!

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Finglas-Boy in reply to Amie9

I always laugh @ folk who apologise to me for "being off work the past 2 days with flu"!! I've only had flu once in my life & couldnt lift my head off the pillow for 2 weeks!

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Amie9 in reply to Finglas-Boy

To be fair, I very rarely miss work for any sort of illness, but this one really messed me up! lol I literally went from my bed to my sofa for 3 weeks and that was hard enough!! Walking made me want to vomit lol

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Finglas-Boy

Just relax as much as you can til your appt comes around. Plug yourself into whatever music gets you laid back, ignore phone (that's why God invented voicemail!) & whoever's @ the door can always come back! Keep me posted after the doc.

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Amie9 in reply to Finglas-Boy

I've been ignoring many people lol. My mum tried texting me and I ignored it (I actually kinda forgot lol) for 2 days haha. I don't use my phone often, especially when I'm ill, I've literally been waited on the last week so I have been taking it easy lol. I feel for my boyfriend, he's been like a servant to me lol

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Finglas-Boy

What?! You've ignored the Mammy?! Shame on you!!! (lol). But partners are meant to wait on the Ill half of the relationship! You should just tell work you're better off @ home rather than turning in & infecting anyone!! Can just picture you ringing a bell & shouting; "Unclean, Unclean"!!

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Amie9 in reply to Finglas-Boy

Lol oops, I'm sure she understands....until she told me she had to have her tonsils removed because she kept getting infections!! (Ta mam, I really needed that!!😒😂) lol I basically said that lol, luckily I've got no work now until Friday, so I've it 4 days to get better lol.

Hahaha I could see myself doing that too, I'm so damn dramatic it's unreal😂 I was supposed to be in work today, although I could probably work, I phoned in sick again lol, I ain't going in until I know I'm not giving anyone some sort of disease😂 I can imagine someone coming in saying "you served me this damn food, now I've got swollen tonsils you f*cking disease!!"😂😂

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Finglas-Boy

I had my tonsils out @ age 4. Just remember the loads of ice cream I used to get to reduce the swelling!

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Amie9 in reply to Finglas-Boy

I'm avoiding ice cream because I had some yesterday and it made me feel awful!!

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Finglas-Boy

I'm lucky in that I can often work from home. (I'm told it's a privilege of rank!!). Whenever I have ice cream it always reminds me of a naughty joke I've known since I was a kid!

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Amie9 in reply to Finglas-Boy

In my job, I HAVE to be well enough to work. I work at a fast food restaurant lol.

I didn't know I've cream could make things dirty...lol

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Finglas-Boy

Ooooo! Fast food! I'd be fired after a month for "eating the profits"!! Ice cream dirty? Hey - I'm Irish!!

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Amie9 in reply to Finglas-Boy

I get a free staff meal so I'm okay lol. Some people do eat the profits lol, they just take it off (so the cooks know there's some missing and to cook more) the board. Lol. I work at KFC lol.

#chicken4life😂

Really?! Lol the Irish are funny as hell, and I think their accents are hilarious!! lol I'm Welsh, so I'm one of those people who no one can understand lol

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Finglas-Boy in reply to Amie9

My mother tongue is Munster Gaeligh. Came to UK about age 15 & English was very bad. The owld craic comes in handy @ Board mtgs when I wanna swear @ someone! But Irish/Welsh means we're "Fellow Gaels"!

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Amie9 in reply to Finglas-Boy

You're English is pretty good now!! Like, I didn't fully understand that message but I get the jist of it lol.

Well then, Hello my fellow Gael!!! lol I went to the US for a few years when I was 8, came back to the UK at 12, so I sometimes randomly crack out an American accent without realising. It really creeps some people out but I never notice unless someone says something lol

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Finglas-Boy

Dia duit, Amie9! Cen chaoi a bhfuil tu?! The States, aye?! Take it there's nothing else you're ashamed of(. (Sorry - Couldn't resist it!!!

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Amie9 in reply to Finglas-Boy

I didn't understand that first sentence lol, it's not a language I understand lol.

Lol yeah, I got nothing to be ashamed of, but it is quite funny seeing people look at me as if I'm alien when my accent changes lol

Did they check for diabetes?

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Amie9 in reply to Evanescenceclueless

No, but I had a phone call today and they found out I have a urine infection. So I've got antibiotics to take for the next 3 days

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