I have to make this tough choice...

[kevoreally]

I have decided it must be made now before its TRULY too late.. every time im with my fiance im going to throw myself into my fears... im going to become the EXORCIST and remove my inner demons and face my fears.. this thought becoming real is making me overheat with anxiety and I havent even done anything about it yet to make my words turn to action.. but its time! So what if i die it will be okay no matter how much i feel i cant breathe or th feeling of passing out it will be okay in the end this is for the greater good.

Im discussing me overcoming my anxiety guys worded poorly thats what im trying to say haha exorcist as in remove my demons when i say demons i mean my anxiety and fears

Throwing myself out there i meant like going to the places i have anxiety attacks and just sit and breathe even if i died from it which wouldnt happen i would soon beccome comfortable with all the symptoms of anxiety and eventually get over it

I got a fortune cookie the other day saying:

"No man is free who is not master of himself"

Wise words

[LMCello]

What choice do you need to make? You’re not making a lot of sense. Please stop and breathe for a few minutes and ground yourself. I hope you’re okay.

[kevoreally in reply to LMCello]

Wait what? No no all is well haha i was trying to say i need to fight my demons and put myself in an uncomfortable anxiety filled situation in order to overcome it im good though haha didnt mean to scare anyone

[Indigojoe in reply to kevoreally]

Kevoreally, I don't know if you have any professional and or medical support, so in case you do, do you reach out for their help when you get triggered as you have this past week?

[kevoreally in reply to Indigojoe]

I have a therapist i usually just ride things out bymyself or with my fiance but been doing this for 4 years now maybe even 5 lol but uhhhhhh I have 911 on speed dial as does everyone lmao

[greeneyes2]

Hi, I didn't quite understand this post either. Are you ok?

[kevoreally in reply to greeneyes2]

All is well over here was just sayig i need to fight my anxiety before its toovlate where im 40 and stil lsuffering im young should be going on many adventures but my anxiety is limiting so i was saying i must put myself in uncomfortable anxiety filled environments to get over it

[greeneyes2 in reply to kevoreally]

Ah ok I get you now. Yes you are right, I start a new job tomorrow and I feel a bit nervous but hoping it goes ok 😊

[kevoreally in reply to greeneyes2]

Just remember to breathe and youll be all set keep focused on training part not your physical and mental feelings if you keep focusing on your brrathing or heart your gonna go in panic so either dont think or just focus on the job and uoull be set

[greeneyes2 in reply to kevoreally]

Thank you 😊 x

[LMCello]

Thanks for clarifying. I was worried. I love your wording of becoming your own exorcist. I want to do that too!

[kevoreally in reply to LMCello]

Haha any time and yeah i wanna release my demons and be free!!!! Screw anxiety!!

[Vbee]

Use the DARE response!!!!! No need for a self exorcism!! 🤣🤣🤣

[kevoreally in reply to Vbee]

I am trying out the DO NOTHING THINK NOTHING tactic and it seems to kinda work just letting the wave do its thing

[Anxiousfrog]

What i got from this is that you want to force yourself to just hang in there, and breathe and like, be kinda one with your anxiety? Sorry, if i got that wrong x(

The thing about anxiety is that, it's entire purpose is to keep you alive. So it's sorta ironic that our anxiety can make us want to die. I'm like that now i don't want to die, but the anxiety is just stacking on top of my shoulders that it makes me want to die. Anxiety is a master at illusion, which makes anxiety so hard to deal with. So trying to handle the symptoms is, really hard. But it's not impossible. If you don't meditate please, please, do! Yoga and meditation is key! I also recommend using your brain a lot, so it gets tired. Read, write etc.

Good thing is, you mentioned you have a fiance? That's great! because that means you have somebody to live for!

[kevoreally in reply to Anxiousfrog]

No no i will explain what i meant later haha nothing negative in the post all positive it s basically about me wanting to face my fears

[Agora1 in reply to kevoreally]

I hear you kevoreally... time has a way of going by and rather than lose all the years to anxiety, take hold of the reins now and get yourself back on track.