I can’t do this anymore.

[destinymichelle]

Im writing yet another post because I am exhausted..

I went to Walmart with my fiancé. I had to talk myself into even going. Once we got there, I thought that I was ok and was trying to push myself through it. We were only in there for 10 minutes and I got shaky, lightheaded, felt like I couldn’t breathe, my heart was racing. All that I could think about once I started feeling that way is that I was going to die or an ambulance was going to have to come get me. I’m home now and still shaking and feel like I can’t breathe. I can’t handle this anymore... this can’t just be anxiety. I’m going to die I feel like... I’m going crazy.

[lovetodance2018]

I can relate to your struggles. I was grocery shopping with my little daughters and I could finish because my anxiety was so bad, I was shaking and couldn’t breathe. I called my husband and just sat in the car for a long time till I could drive. The sooner you can get on anxiety med and get to a counselor you will begin to feel better. Did your try the CBT icoach app - cognitive behavior therapy. It helps take our anxiety in small steps. It is so important for you to try to keep your thoughts in just the moment you are in and not to go any further with you thoughts. Try to find something grateful for in that moment. Our church has a counselor on staff at no cost. Maybe you can check some churches out and see if they have counselors. I will continue to be praying for you. Know you can feel better. Keep believing you will feel better. Lots of Hugs 🤗💕

[destinymichelle in reply to lovetodance2018]

Can it cause you to be pale? I’m still feeling like it’s hard to breathe and I still feel pretty lightheaded. I looked at myself in the mirror and I look pale. That freaked me out even more. I need to download that app right now! Thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️

[sweetiepye]

You experienced an almost classic panic attack. You describe it so well it brought back the feelings they used to evoke in me. Yes, you can turn pale and get weak and shaky. You are probably hyperventilating which is why you feel you can't breath. Try to slow your breathing down, as you gain control of one thing you will be able to get control of more and the panic will stop. Have you seen a doctor and a therapist ? Where are you in your recovery ? Pam

[destinymichelle in reply to sweetiepye]

I think I might still be panicking because I’m still feeling the same as I did earlier, except it’s really just my breathing and my chest hurting. I’m scared something serious is going on and I’m scared to fall asleep.. I don’t want to die.

I have had a doctor tell me these symptoms are just from my GAD. I’ve been to the ER 2 times since July and they said it was just anxiety.

I’m currently looking into counseling and getting on medication at a free mental health clinic because I have no health insurance.

[NikeYrk]

Definitely a panic attack, the positive are those feelings you have can’t hurt or harm or have any real danger, they’re only ‘feelings’ backed up with no real evidence of danger. I’m not sure if you have panic disorder but I would suggest as soon as you can listen this audio book by Claire Weekes before this grows into a bigger problem. youtu.be/MHr4a71XGJE(Not working as expected?). She is a doctor from back in the day that has helped MANY people with overcoming panic attacks and symptoms. Ofcourse this takes work, always remember you have to feel the fear which are the symptoms and sensations to learn to unfear them, which is usually through exposure. I would suggest therapy but if you can’t there are many resources online, youtube.com/channel/UClU2QM... . That channel is another guy I listen to who overcame panic disorder. Send me a message if you have questions

[destinymichelle in reply to NikeYrk]

Thank you so so much for the tools you’ve given me to try to help cope. I appreciate it very much! ❤️ I will look into these!

[Tranquilwaters]

I have had EXACTLY the same experience today myself. I forced myself to go shopping with my Hubby - the adrenaline started even as I got into the shower to get ready this morning. By the time I was in the shops, I had visions of going completely mad and lying on the ground screaming. Everything was blurry - my shoulders, neck and jaw were like concrete. It felt like my brain wasn't 'talking' to my legs and like I was walking through quicksand. My stomach was churning and it felt like I was going to either throw up or lose control of my bowels (sorry to be graphic).

I am at home now, and had a complete crying meltdown when I got home.

I am sending you so much love - I understand completely and hope and believe that no matter how hideous this is, that we will be able to overcome it one day. It's been 7 years for me now, though.💜💜💜💜

[destinymichelle in reply to Tranquilwaters]

Wow. This is miserable. I am so sorry that you had to go through this. Ever since I went to the store, I’ve been on edge and my whole entire body hurts. It feels good to know that other people can understand where I’m coming from, but it also breaks my heart because I hate that any of us have to deal with this. Thank you for the positive energy. I will keep you in my prayers and I’m sending so much love your way as well. 💜 I always try to tell myself that anxiety is strong, but I am stronger.

I just can’t seem to shake that feeling that something else is really really wrong w me. It’s depressing. Feel free to message me anytime if you’d like to talk. 💜

[Jenn515]

Wow same thing happens to me! I have to hold on to my fiance at walmart and cant be alone or i feel like im going to fall on the ground, i dont go out anymore to much because of this its horrible!!!

[destinymichelle in reply to Jenn515]

I do not like to go out without my fiancé because he knows how I’m feeling and he can try to help me, but now I’ve gotten to the point where I don’t even like to go out or go outside at all even if he’s with me!!!