Im struggling /:

[anxiousalexis]

I can't find relief. I was doing good for 2 weeks because of the herbs I was taking. I started taking them again since my 2nd panic attack. If any of you have been reading my posts, you know my anxiety is making me fear growing up because I'm 18. I know it's not gonna harm me bit my anxiety makes me think way into the future. I don't want to leave my parents, I don't want to be on my own just yet. Seeing all these kids go back to school puts a hole in my stomach cause I never saw myself growing up. Time just went by too fast and my anxiety is using that against me. My parents are supportive and say I can stay with them as long as I want because I've had anxiety all my life and want me to be comfortable. I usually get out of these funks. But this one, idk. It's making me scared of life. I start think why life is worth living. We all go through horrible things and get sick and feel pain and see horrible things. I know that's part of life but my anxiety wants to use all that against me. A few months ago, I thought life was beautiful. I was my happiest. I was still 18 no fear of growing up and my family growing up. Then I had that panic attack and when I was on the phone with the nurse to maybe get some xanax. They told my mom, "Since she's 18. I have to ask for her permission." Since my mind was very sensitive and my anxiety was looking for anything to scare me.. I think that's where the fear began. And now those thoughts don't leave my head. I see little kids and I get sad and anxious. I see older people, I get sad and anxious. I can't escape it. I'm begging for a cure to anxiety cause I cant live like this. I'm scared. I take medication, I go to therapy. But I can't find anything to help me. What do I do? IM DESPERATE. If there was a painful procedure to get my mind back on track, I'd do it in a heartbeat. My anxiety just doesnt let me move on with life. Im begging for help. Thank you for reading this long post.

[Agora1]

Hi alexisl99, I can understand your fear and hesitation of not wanting to leave the security of your family. It does also mean that you have had a good childhood and upbringing. Separation is very difficult for the anxious person. And yes, once you become 18, it takes a written authorization by you to still give your mom authority to handle your medical/mental issues.

Your parents sound very supportive of your needs. Most kids can't wait to leave home thinking it's going to be a piece of cake. Ones who have close knit relationship with family realize the love and support behind them. That doesn't mean as you grow up that it disappears. Keep going to therapy to help you through this phase of life. You are still young, one day you will accept the responsibility of reaching maturity. But until then, continue staying with your parents if you need to. The day will come that you meet someone special and will want to start a life of your own. You sound like a very loving and sweet daughter. Your parents are blessed to have you in their lives.

It will all work out because life can be beautiful no matter what age. xx

[anxiousalexis]

Thank you. This gave me some type of relief. I appreciate it a lot

[Stumblety]

I've had anxiety for 16 years. Tried everything, sometimes some things work sometimes they don't. I totally hear you of what's the point of all this pain in life. I have been working extremely hard to connect with a "higher power" (I was an atheist). As far as I understand my purpose here regardless of my emotional and mental state, is to try a be a conduit of Love and Energy. (This is a work in progress).

I still struggle with anxiety and catastrophising life but I am starting to feel SOME (small) sense of purpose. I find solace in working towards a better connection with my higher power and doing more work and more therapy to help me. One thing I do know is that anxiety is not an unusual condition and it is very treatable. Not sure about curable but def can work to diminish it.

One last thing I do is try and appreciate my anxiety. It makes me a much more empathetic person. I like that quality in me.

Things will get better. Anxiety is something that ebbs and flows.

[anxiousalexis in reply to Stumblety]

Glad to hear im not the only one with these thoughts. Ive definitely been praying and trying to find relief in all of this. Thank you for your story and advice. I'm really trying to push through this

[Stumblety in reply to anxiousalexis]

Yeah not only are you not the only one but there are millions of people going through this. If you ever feel suicidal pick up the phone. Love you!

[BlueEyes4]

Ask your doc if you can try propranolol it's a beta blocker and works by lowering the heart rate enough to stop panic attacks, it won't lower it too much just low enough to stop the adrenaline and symptoms of panic, it's not a mind altering med at all and isn't addictive, I've just started mine 2 weeks ago and haven't had a panic attack since!

It doesn't help with feeling the fear but it certainly takes the edge off 😊

[anxiousalexis in reply to BlueEyes4]

Well I'm taking zoloft and xanax. Zoloft is every night and the xanax is for as needed. I'll definitely ask about propranolol tho bc i know xanax can be addicting which gives me anxiety sometimes aha. It's crazy how our minds play tricks on us. Thanks for the advice

[BlueEyes4]

Definitely, I'm on clonazepam but it's given up on me now and I only take 1.25mg and have never abused them but nope not helping this time what si ever 😕

Well I hope you can get pro and it helps for you too