I dont WANT anything anymore. Im kinda done.

[Lucas29]

I really tried my best to be a productive person. Did college for 2 years, univeristy for 3, worked abroad like a fun, life loving human, one day because of depression and anxiety, had a panic attack/mental breakdown, broke up with gf because of low self-esteem, that was 5 years ago, Ive done NOTHING since. antideps dont work, therapy is a waste of time. Never wanted marriage or kids anyway. Tried and tried to keep jobs, simply couldnt, aspergers and ADHD ruined me. Im embarrassed. Im done, I dont WANT anything anymore...and thats the worst part, when the 'want' goes, thats bad. Sorry for the pity party.

[Anxiouspony12]

Well we all have had bad times where all seems hopeless. It's interesting you say you have ADHD! Cos I have ADHD! I'm waiting for appointment to see specialist! Sadly depression is often part of ADHD as is anxiety. Have you been treated for that and the Aspergers?

[Lucas29 in reply to Anxiouspony12]

Hey, yeah ive been back and forth from the doctors for 12 years or so, they always give me either citaloprim or sertraline. Never worked for me, im not bashing them they work for some people but not me :/ I kept trying over and over, never works, just nasty side effects. Thanks for replying.

[Anxiouspony12 in reply to Lucas29]

Thanks your welcome. Yeah I know that feeling of seeing different therapist's and trying different meds and it not helping. Hopefully you'll find good one that helps you.

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Who liked this post? Anyways, Lucas, I feel your pain. Life has a way of changing though, so please don't give up 💜 Good things comes to those who wait. Its hard to see anything good in the future when you feel so low right now, but things will get better as long as you keep trying to make your life better. Find new hobbies and stuff that ya like. There's a girl out there for you. Itll be ok ☺ just keep pushing on and moving forward. If you need to talk, message me 👍

[Agora1]

Lucas29, You're a highly educated young man with the world at your feet, if you so choose. You may feel you don't want anything anymore but it sounds like you need something in your life. You just haven't found it yet. If you are not happy then you can't see happiness around you. Antidepressants may not work for you but there may be something that will. Finding the right medication as well as dosage makes a world of difference. As for therapy, same thing. The right therapist goes hand in hand with the right medication. Just for a while. You've already lost 5 years. It's sad to see such a waste of a life. Instead of pebbles in the road, you have found a big boulder blocking your path in going forward. You're stuck. You need to believe in yourself once again. That will give you back your self esteem. Do you have people around you that can support you and not put you down? (you are getting enough of that from yourself)

What about seeing a Life Coach. You have all the makings of someone who can be successful, you just need someone to believe in you until you take over. You may not want marriage or kids but wouldn't companionship down the road be nice. It's not impossible. First you take care of you and then the rest will fall into place. I will not believe that there isn't something out there that will help you, BUT it first has to start with you. I'm glad you wrote the forum Lucas. You will get the support you need from all of us. You are never alone.

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Magnesium helps ADHD and asperges, it relieves stress anxiety and depression. Maybe you should try it.

Magnesium glycinate.

[scaredfish]

Hi. Just wanted you to know you're not alone. I dropped out of college last year because my mental health became so unbearable even though I kept it so hidden, friends still don't even know why I suddenly left.

Panic attacks left and right, hoping I wasn't dying everyday.. that wasn't a way to live for sure. So I had to quit school. I feel terrible about it but oh well! Your own health is more important than that.

I also have ADD (innattentive) and have literally just flaked out on jobs because I couldn't do it anymore.

Antidepressants and therapy never did anything for me either.. I just hope you know you're not alone in this

[Agora1 in reply to scaredfish]

scaredfish, I'm very sorry to hear this. I can't imagine what your day must be like.

[scaredfish in reply to Agora1]

Thank you for your kindness, agora1. They are bad days. But I know I can try to help others at least, so I find some solace in that 😌

[Agora1 in reply to scaredfish]

Me too scaredfish , we are two of a kind

[PaulaL]

I understand you, because of my anxiety and social phobia my last years was wasted and sometimes is difficult to see a better future. But after years of therapy and some little victories I start to feel better, and I know you will feel it too.

Ask for help for your loved ones, find a reason to keep fighting and you will find a better life