Like I don't understand this . I'm petrified of dying especially when I get panic attacks, then I feel like I have this black cloud over me with depression symptoms like then I think about dying and I'm like omg what if someday I really do snap and try and hurt myself or something like that . I feel so detached like I'm not myself anymore , I don't even remember the last time I felt myself . I have to remind myself sometimes I'm alive and not dreaming lol , I feel like this whole worrying about death and dying and loosing my mind and harming myself is like OCD but I don't know . My dr prescribed Zoloft and Ativan right now it's only been like theee days with the Zoloft and I did let him know these thoughts and how distressing they are and he seems to think nothing of it . Can this just be from the overload of anxiety and adrenaline ? I feel like I need reassurance or to put my mind at ease somehow , I'm like stuck in this anxious state , I just wanna snap out of this but I don't know how . I'm gonna start therapy soon too. People don't realize how much this stresses me out and causes me more distress. What do you think I could do for all this ? I'm petrified I'm gonna be like this and stuck in this doomed state forever .