Felt really weird lately...

Keep feeling really weird just lately and I keep having thoughts about my life, I'm gonna sound crazy and I'm actually scared to write this post. Basically it's like I've actually thought that I'm dreading my life and it daunts me to know that I might live for years and years, I think this is an intrusive thought trying to bring me down, everytime I think about it my stomach churns and at night I don't want to go to sleep because im scared to wake up in the morning and feel like this again! I can't explain how weird I feel and it's like im fine until I think about it again and then I'm left feeling anxious and doubtful again that I'll always think and feel this weird :s and also I've thought lately why is everyone so high on life when all everyone does is go to work come home sleep and do it all over again, I don't think I'm depressed and even if I was it's not bad because I'm still out shopping and going to work, can anyone say they've experienced the same because I don't want to think that I'm the only one who's ever felt like this!!!!!! Thanks guys xx

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Stomachs churning waiting for a reply

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Keyleigh94 aw hunni you will be fine,really hunni,this feels like the most abnormal thing to be experiencing but it actually is serving a purpose to u. I think to myself this is my mind or sixth sense telling me I want to be alive and to start living not existing,i feel dizzy panicky tired etc but yet if I kick my ass and go get physical or positive for me or my friends/family suddenly I forget I was feeling awful before. we r all different and experience different things but here we realise how it all boils down to the same thing,believe believe believe that this does not have to be what holds us back,this could be what gives us that ooooomph we have needed...xxx

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Well that's what I call my anxiety ,just how you described it above,I go to my bed early to try and forget then I worry about feeling the same next morning ,people who go through their daily lives quite happy to me don't have anxiety,I feel I am wasting my life,some days I worry about dying soon and never being happy again,some days I worry about living a long life feeling like this.

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It's like sometimes I can be fine and think i can't wait to have children and get married and then other moments im freaking out about my whole life, not thinking what's the point because that's the thought that scares me just thinking what if I always feel this horrible and vulnerable and what if I can't enjoy my life and push this thought to the back of my head so I can enjoy my life and live normally like everyone else does, is this the same for you too?? Xx

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Why is right I sometimes try to sing over it(Jesus loves me) lol

I also try to go with the flow and think "it won't happen anyway"

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Hi

Hope your stomach has stopped churning now , nothing you post will anyone judge on here

I think we have all had these thoughts or similar of some kind in fact I can imagine they have crossed every ones minds at one time or another but people without anxiety just cast them aside where people with anxiety tend to let them fester till they become a fear & then fear causes more anxiety & we can feel afraid of these thoughts we are getting

When something crosses my mind & I don't like it I try to throw it back out , sing over the top of it anything to distract me because the less importance I give it the sooner it will go away , it's not easy but with practice you can learn to do it

Hope you feel reassured you are not on your own with the way you think

Love

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Hi thankyou for all your replies!! So have you all experienced the same thing and experienced being scared or anxious to go to sleep because you predict it's just going to be the same thing all over again? I've come on in leaps and bounds this past month I'm not at rock bottom like I was a few weeks ago so I don't know why I'm letting this new thought scare me !! Just want it to get better now or I just want to sleep till it all goes away! Ha ha if only xx

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I say to myself "nothing stays the same forever" - good, or bad and, so far, it's worked. When I've had a panic attack/anxiety/depression everything seems so clear and unrelenting, but eventually, usually, life kicks in and you start to feel better. Loneliness or fear of being alone is awful too and you wonder how people cope, but most do. Acceptance of bad times and "face the fear and do it anyway" may help. Personally I'm all for anti-depressants, anything that helps get those good chemicals working. Force yourself out, join a self-help group of some sort, any distraction to keep those wolves at bay. I used to find (in a group), that when I heard of other people's distress I actually felt not so bad when comparing my worries with theirs. Be brave, you're not alone and people care about you. Love xxx