Hi guys! It's been a long time since I've posted on here. I had been seeking treatment and I was very nervous about taking medications. For a while, I noticed some really great things. I was happy again. I was doing things on a whim. I was able to be myself again. I was taking a mixture of medicines including lexapro, 2 types of xanax, latuda, buspar, and some natural supplements. I was stressed about taking medicine because one day I'm taking 1 pill a day and the next day I'm taking 5 pills and trying to balance everything and remember to take them. However, I was able to live my life without the anxieties I had been feeling. Before the meds, I was nauseous all the time and after the meds the anxiety shifted to breathing problems and now I'm back to the nausea. This is making me feel like I'm taking a lot of steps backwards in my process which depresses me. I only want to keep moving forward and one day not rely on medication and therapy to keep me happy. Anyone else "relapse" or get better and then in the middle of treatment start feeling like you're starting from square one?