Things getting a little better

[Tamka39]

I doing a little better early yesterday afternoon I rode with my mom to take my son to apply for a job and it was 40 minutes there and 40 back I got nervous when we got to the Job I listen to some meditation and was able to relax without taking Xanax I haven’t taken Xanax in 2 days am happy about that and still taking my Prozac and I thinking am moving in the right direction haven't been craving for alcohol so that's a A+ in my book happy 24 to all of u enjoy your day 🙏🏾❤️😎👌🏾

[ADHDOverload]

That’s great! It’s one step at a time. When you see yourself making improvements...then stop and commend your hard work. Keep pushing forward and don’t look back. I’m proud of you! Have a wonderful weekend friend! 🙏✌️

[Tamka39 in reply to ADHDOverload]

Thank you same to u

[lorianxiety]

that's sounds positive,and may it continue ,discussing problems whether drink/drugs whatever does help release tension,wish you well.

[Tamka39 in reply to lorianxiety]

Thanks

[Agora1]

I'm happy for you Tamka39... Good job xx

[Tamka39 in reply to Agora1]

Am unhappy

[Agora1 in reply to Tamka39]

Why honey?? What's going on.

[Tamka39 in reply to Agora1]

I wake up anxious to the time I go to bed at night. I been on Prozac for a week now and am just tried of struggling daily just want to be able to go to the store without panicking and go to college get a job I just want to be happy and travel the world anxiety has ruined my life I rather be depressed than being anxious all the time am disappointed in myself

[Agora1 in reply to Tamka39]

Tamka it's not your fault. Dealing with anxiety is a full time job in itself. One week on Prozac is not enough time for it to reach it's full efficacy levels. Give it a chance to work usually 4-6 weeks. Work closely with your doctor/therapist in your struggles. You will reach your goals, one day at a time, one step at a time. You have your future in front of you, don't obscure your dreams by tearing yourself down. Be positive, believe in your dreams, they will happen for you when the time is right. xx

[Tamka39 in reply to Agora1]

I feel like ending it because of anxiety

[muirbabe in reply to Tamka39]

Hi Tamka, I often feel like that, ending it. Mainly because of anxiety. It keeps kicking you. But then I remind myself that it would be very hard for the people who care about me. There are still 1 or 2 left lol.

I dont know what to say to you, other than if you are young, give yourself time to get better. Dont be hard on yourself. I really hope life gets better for you. Best wishes, Anthony

[Tamka39 in reply to muirbabe]

Your name is Anthony

[muirbabe in reply to Tamka39]

Is it really bad including my first name? I am not very familiar with posting on here. I included my first name because a pseudonym doesnt sound as sincere. Sorry if its inappropriate.

[Tamka39 in reply to muirbabe]

No I ask because my fourth son name is Anthony 😂

[muirbabe in reply to Tamka39]

Thank you, I was really worried then lol

[Agora1 in reply to Tamka39]

Tamka, Anxiety no matter how difficult is never a reason for ending it. Not only would it wipe out anxiety but everyone else who loves you and needs you in their lives. It would erase all your hopes and dreams for your son and your future. It would leave an emptiness in his life that could never be fulfilled.

I'm not saying to live in emotional pain for others, what I'm saying is there is help

to overcome anxiety. It's a learning experience in changing our thought habits that

tend to control us. Anxiety is nothing but a misguided thought that comes from our subconscious mind. The key is in accepting this as a lie and stop it in it's tracks.

When we don't, it continues to grow until we are overwhelmed with bodily symptoms. It can be helped with medication/therapy and eventually with you believing that you have the power to overcome these negative thoughts thought other tools and methods.

One day you will look back at these times as the most difficult time of your life. And in return you will be grateful that you didn't give up. xx

[Tamka39 in reply to Agora1]

At the moment am tried am 41 and I can’t even go to the grocery store no longer than 5 minutes or if longer am panicking like crazy 😜 and one am and in my car I want to cry because I feel so bad that I can’t any do the simplest things without panicking am wasting my life being Housebound the only place i feel safe it at home having anxiety is very depressing I stop drinking alcohol to get better but now am thinking probably I wasn’t ready to stop drinking because right now I want to numb my feelings and I don’t want to feel these feelings no more I been through enough growing up was trauma my teen years trauma my adult years trauma and am still struggling is not right am home lone because everybody left me because am afraid to leave my own house unhappy

[Agora1 in reply to Tamka39]

Tamka, I understand your loneliness and pain. I might not have had the trauma you've experienced in your life but I have lost 5 years of my life to agoraphobia that

I will never get back. Never stepped out of the house during those years, cried everyday from being scared and lonely. The one thing that I believed in was myself and that I was going to conquer this absurd way of thinking. I knew that the fearful thoughts were coming from my own mind. There was nothing outside or in a store that could hurt me. My own fears were making this "what if" thoughts come to reality.

I don't know if you stopped drinking on your own or are having any support since doing this. You've lost your crutch right now with alcohol and it may take time until you find another method in giving you strength.

I so understand people leaving in my life because they just didn't understand.

Using this site for encouragement and support will be helpful. I can only tell you by my own experience in that one day, when you are ready, you will get out to the store once again. That will be the beginning of your new life.

Next time we chat, I'll tell you more about the tools I used to get me out of the house and into the stores. What a day that was. xx

[Tamka39]

Am a old lady😂

[muirbabe in reply to Tamka39]

I am 65 and I really feel it on the bike!!

[muirbabe]

I am 65 and I really feel it on the bike!!

[Tamka39 in reply to muirbabe]

Am 41

[muirbabe in reply to Tamka39]

41 is not old, its the new 21!!