The anxiety, stress, and pressure from my job has become too much for me. I feel so stupid all the time, i dont work well with the team. I cant talk to anybody because im too scared and my social anxiety is crippling and i just act so weird around everybody. I get in trouble and the chef is on my ass like crazy. I dont think the chef, and others like me. Ive started binge drinking again and i honestly just want to die sometimes. Ive only had this job for almost two months, im a cook, but idk if i want to do this with my life anymore. My passion has gone and ive gotten myself into the best kitchen in town, a james beard nominated kitchen, theres so many people proud and look forward to seeing my career take off, but i dont want this. I dont want to be a chef anymore. How do i get out? My mentor worked hard to get me into this place and i worked so hard for my skills and used to be the most energetic cook in class and at my old job, do i dissapoint him and others? Or continue to be miserable?