I am having a miserable day today. I did nothing but continuously wake up through the night thinking I could hear our dog crying (he wasn't crying at all) im currently going through a job change where im lucky to have kept my job but im now having to get involved in all sorts of things for the transfer and all I want is an easy road into the new job. I feel like I get one hard task done at work then another comes up. My head is all over the place about my possible up coming op. I wont go into details but there are factors as to when I get the op done and I dont want to waste the consultants time by going in again to ask more questions. I also think she will give me the answer I dont want to hear and I just want to go for it.
Ive done nothing but think all morning and ive gotten to that point where I have a muffled head and every small noise sounds so loud and frustrating. I said to my partner that I just want a break. I know people go through horrible things in life way worse than all of these things, but it just seems to be one thing after another and nothing is ever bloody simple!
Sorry. That was a long rant. I feel like this is the only place I can blurt everything out.