Feeling the worst I have ever felt

The past few months have been horrible. I'm January I was on medicine called effexor for about two years, but I felt it wasn't helping as much anymore, so I went and saw a psychiatrist. He determined that I might have bipolar depression and I was put on Latuda. I was on it for three weeks but ended up going off it as it made me have the most sever anxiety all day. Even getting out of bed was so incredibly hard. I stopped walking my dog, hanging out with friends, and doing the things that have always helped me stay sane because the anxiety was just too bad. I was then put on cymbalta but had horrible side effects and then I got gallbladder attacks which I think resulted from the physical complications of the meds. I just had gallbladder surgery a little over a week ago. I am now healed up and have been on pristiq for almost two weeks I still find it really hard to get out of bed and hate being alone because my anxiety takes over and I feel helpless and now even suicidal, as I fear I will never get better. I'm 27 and live with my mom, all I really have now is her for support and my boyfriend although I think he struggles understanding how I feel. I was just wondering if anyone else has been on pristiq, and of they did feel horrible still at first but it got better. I do see a psychiatrist for the medical part and have a crisis line to contact if I get really bad, but I feel so embarrassed how I feel and alone, because it is hard for most people to understand it is a real horrible thing I am feeling. I haven't worked in years because of my depression and anxiety being so debilitating, and that itself is a huge stresser as I want to get better and be able to work. Anyways, I am just wondering if anyone else has had similar problems because right now I feel there is no light at the end of the tunnel for me

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  • I've struggled/ struggle with anxiety as well. You're not alone, there are many people here and in the world that struggle with a lot of the same thing.

    I hope you find peace and if you like, look at some of my posts and responses as it helps to read some of the stories of others.

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