Hi all, I have suffered with anxiety since I was a teenager (I am now 31) and over the past 3 years my anxiety has got so much worse! I have always holidayed abroad once or twice a year with my husband, daughter who is 8 and step son who is now 16. Three years ago I started panicking when leaving to go to the airport, I was adamant that I couldn't go however my dad managed to calm me down and I eventually went on the holiday. (I fear that I might get ill whilst travelling, as I am Emetophobic) The following year we didn't go on holiday. Last year we booked an holiday to Costa Del Sol and the same thing happened again however this time it was worse and I ended up not going on the family holiday and abandoning my family at the airport! This made me feel terrible however I do not think my husband understands just how crappy I actually feel. I know he thinks I am just being selfish but I honestly cannot seem to control how I feel. I feel awful for my daughter as she loves going on holiday and over the past 3 weeks I have been looking at holidays abroad however I just cannot see me being able to go. I know we would all have a great time if I could just get there. I have seen my doctor who suggested anti-depressants which I don't want, I have tried CBT which didn't work, I don't even like car journeys anymore these freak me out and I am finding that I am drinking more as a result of all this just to help me forget how crappy things are at the moment. Does anyone have any suggestions that I could try?