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[MeBeLacie]

Hello! Haven't been on here for awhile. I had been having pretty bad anxiety/panic attacks. After a couple visits to the doc and one to the er, my meds have been doubled amd was given lorazepam. I feel ok, but still not like myself. The anxiety is still there, ive had one panic attack in 30 days. So thats a plus. After some mri, xrays, and whatever else they did to me, they have found two lumps on my thyroid, one on my pituitary gland, and my eardrum is suctioned the wrong way. WOW! Im not even sure what to do with all that. Two days ago I started to get this pin point pain in my upper chest blow my coller bone.then yesterday, the same pin point pain on my upper back about an inch or two from my spine...my anxiety has me convinced I have a blood clot...I think its might be muscular...im slowly goung back to feeling like a total mess again...constantly feeling like I have something that is going to kill me. My biggest fear is death....of myself. Im afraid to take the lorazepam because I hear people getting addicted to them. Guh!!! Hows everyone else doing today?