Please write all of your symptoms.. Derealization anxiety ocd..

[RyRywifey]

Good morning you all.. Having a bad morning.. Woke up with racing morbid thoughts, always waking up thinking or feeling like "what if I die soon" or "how will I" and nothing feels real. I'm not sick or anything, very healthy.. Have had thoughts like this every single day since my very first panic attack 2 months ago. Please help me!!! I just want to be and feel normal again!!!

[mrworry2468]

Where do I start l, fever, brain fog, migraines, tickely sensations, weak on one side of body, feel like I've got flu now and then, dizziness, can't focus, spaced out, fear of stroke and seizures, no energy, tired, that's just a few of them 😂

[RyRywifey in reply to mrworry2468]

Yeah.. I have some of those too, not so much the physical symptoms though, more so the mental ones. But I do get knots in my stomach or upset stomach from the mental symptoms. I just want to know if anyone has the same mental symptoms, the constant racing morbid thoughts is soooooooooo annoying

[1eeee1 in reply to mrworry2468]

i have exactly the same symptons, i'm quite young though so i'm quite scared if the doctors won't listen to me.. and btw the younger you are w/ anxiety is it more dangerous??

[1eeee1 in reply to mrworry2468]

omg i have exactly the same symptons i had NO IDEA they were linked to anxiety

[RyRywifey in reply to 1eeee1]

Yes they are!! Anxiety makes you think the worst and fear EVERYTHING!!! Anxiety is annoying af

[Hidden]

There are a great many symptoms associated with anxiety disorder - you already mentioned two ocd and derealisation/depresonalisation - then there is fatigue, lethargy, pains in all parts of the body, dizziness, light headedness, breathing difficulties, fear of sudden death , panic, eating disorder, swallowing difficulties, agoraphobia, sleep disorders, social anxiety, suicidal thoughts, violence against others thoughts - and those are just the ones off the top of my head. Now that is an illness. Does not matter if you cant see this illness like you can see a broken leg or something like that - it is there and it can be very serious and difficult to cure. But many people are cured when they get the right treatment.

Karl

[RyRywifey in reply to Hidden]

Thank you Karl. If many people have been cured with the right treatment, I have hope that I will too. I have noticed my symptoms have gotten better since last month, but I just want the thoughts to go away

[allnew2me]

There are so many yet reading that my mind then goes blank.

Daily I feel knotted up, feel like my chestis squashed, like I have no clue what's going on right in front of me, disconnected as if nothing is real like I'm daydreaming in not a very nice place, crappy thoughts pop in my head, make a mountain out of a molehill, can't be bothered to do anything, generally miserable, nervous about the slightest thing, all het up and all I can think us omg omg omg with nothing else in my head, General everyday scenarios play through my head that have happened but they get a different outcome, usually cold nearly all day and night. Uhmmmmm, apprehension, unable to make decisions about anything, worrying all the time when I'm not a born worrier and I worry about things that I have no control over. E.g my 11 yr old just showed me an article about prof Stephen hawking. He says the world is facing disaster for certain. Usually I'd have glanced to pay an I'm wrest but no I had to sit and read the whole damn thing and now it's in my head. It's in a thousand to ten thousand years time...really?!? Why would this worry me needlessly, obviously it is a concern but not something I can fix single handedly but that's the route my brain id onI'd right now.

To begin with I had all of the above plus more like shaking/trembling inside and out, butterflies, feeling sick, like I was genuinely dying I felt so crap (not got health anxiety I just felt awful), like I was having a breakdown and needed locking up, couldn't do anything at all no matter how hard I tried I couldn't make myself.

Sometimes but not continuously like before since starting propranolol I still get those that I was first experiencing but I get h headaches, and tension in the back of my neck and head, fshooting pain in my stomach and up my side. Numb hands and feet, chest pain usually in my right side, palpitations or feeling like my heart has stopped completely and dropped to my feet.

I have found my patience is practically non existent and the slightest little thing irritates me so muchI when it would never have registered to me before. My short term memory has become appalling.

I think that's me summarised I've probably missed a couple. It's a bit like being asked what my d.O.b is I have to stop and think about it even though I know it for sure.

[RyRywifey in reply to allnew2me]

As far as reading what someone says about the world, that is just an opinion, and people have had those opinions for the longest. And who knows, he could have anxiety and be speaking through his symptoms. I wouldn't worry about that at all honestly. No ones thoughts can change reality at the end of the day. The sky will still be blue or cloudy like it has always been no matter how much our imagination makes us think differently. But besides that part, for your other symptoms, have you been to a professional?? I have been seeing mine every week and I was suppose to yesterday but she cancelled and I think that's what sent me into a frenzy when I woke up this morning. It really does help to get help. I'm also considering meds at this point to give me a push back to my normal self again. And winter is a little depressing as well. I think once spring and summer comes, all of us will have a sense of relief. Being in the sun always makes a big difference. I've only been this way for 2 months after a marijuana induced panic attack. So I'm very new to these symtoms but what gets me through is knowing that it's anxiety.

[allnew2me in reply to RyRywifey]

I've only realised I've been like this since 31st December it hit with a whack. I thought I was fine before this and all through the day on the 31st. I finally thought I had list it and went to the gp on 7th January. He started me on propranolol. And I took the first dose that evening. He gave me a number for self referral I think its called an IAPT group. Down here its called steps to well-being so itjust gets referred to as that . I called them the next morning they took my details and told me I'd hear from them Mon or tues for an assessment (this was Friday ). To my reliefr they called that same evening and in such a state I had took it that when they called it would be an assessment but I was sadly wrong. My assessment is 1st February and I've made huge steps in ignoring a lot that's going on in me but I'm well aware it's still there and often takes a lot of ignoring. The majority of the physical and external symptoms are being controlled since starting the propranolol as well as the heart palpitations. 1st Feb cannot come soon enough for me but because I am not a physical wreck anymore it worries me they will pay me on the head and say there's nothing wrong. Fortunately the gp I saw knows me pretty well as he has seen one of mysson's a lot with his health troubles so he could see without me opening my mouth to start with I was not right. I'm hoping that he is right in thinking that I don't have depression and it is all anxiety as that alone seems a big enough battle without the battle of depression too.

I had looked into seeing a private therapist as I didn't want to wait but figured that I needed a proper assessment before embarking on any treatment so that both I and the therapist know what there is to fight. is I worry that I may suppress something before the assessment and then my treatment will be set to fail before it's begin so to speak. It's torture waiting but it's slowly drawing nearer.

Total irrational thoughts are all I seem to have. I rationalise all I can though x

[RyRywifey in reply to allnew2me]

Yes irrational thinking is a huge part of anxiety and depression is greatly linked to anxiety as well. So don't be surprised if you have both, for they go hand and hand. I have anxiety as well as depression, ocd, and DP. So these disorders are linked, but are curable! Which is awesome!! Just have to get the correct treatment!

[allnew2me in reply to RyRywifey]

It won't be a surprise if I have something else to go with it but I sure do hope not for treatments

Sake if nothing else. Surely it's easier to make a recovery from a smaller list? Who knows hopefully not long and I can begin to walk through the tunnel to find some light. I'm prepared for it to take time but at the same time hope it's not too long. I like everyone else on here want to feel my 'normal' self again xx

[RyRywifey in reply to allnew2me]

Just try to start more positive self talk and realize that your thoughts and symptoms are all from anxiety. And yes it will take time, but knowing that is a sign of your normal rational self. And honey all of us have a long list lol

[allnew2me in reply to allnew2me]

Don't know how I forgot but tiredness. I wake up tired and tired all day although it hasn't been as bad this last week. I'm still tired by all means but not as exhausted. Can no longer sleep for as long as I could either xx

[Agora1 in reply to allnew2me]

Hi allnew2me, I'm so sorry you are still struggling along. I was so hoping

"This is my Fight Song" would have carried you along. I seem to hear that

song on the radio whenever I'm in my car. I remember how passionate you

were about fighting anxiety and winning. Your determination is what got me

through getting out again. Thank you for that. I only hope that things turn around

for you as well. Remember....."take back my life song". Listen to it again,

powerful words. Take care. xx

[allnew2me in reply to Agora1]

Hi Agora. I'm ok. Not been on here in a long time as I try to not think about anxiety at all. I'm not 'fixed' it's still there but I like to think of it as though I'm in recovery. Each day comes and goes. There's nothing that worrying is going to achieve within that time.

Just had a beautiful week on holiday with my husband and boys and it's the first time in a year I was anxiety free for a day let alone the whole week it was bliss. Real life kicked in with the usual anxieties but I deal with them as they arise and kick their butts.

There is the odd day that's a bit of a struggle but I'm happy to say they are less and less frequent.

I managed to break the habit. It still creeps in but I understand it, it doesn't scare me and I know how to get through it. I was discharged from therapy mid April and I've not looked back. My future is in front of me not behind me and I hope that everyone here can see that future in the haze the anxiety creates.

Everyone can do this. I'm not saying it's easy and sometimes the battle is extremely tiring and wearing.

Fight song still gives me a boost whenever I need a bit of belief.

I am so so happy to know you got out again. It brings a lump to my throat to know that. Please continue to be a bit more brave everyday. Just baby steps. Rome wasn't built in a day.

Keep believing. You and everyone can win this fight

Take good care of yourself xxx

[Agora1 in reply to allnew2me]

allnew2me, it was so so nice to hear from you. Your way of thinking has certainly changed. I'm happy for you. I'm like you are, when anxiety creeps in, it no longer scares me either. I don't have time for this baloney anymore lol. It's not easy but has gotten easier as I have gotten better at it not taking over.

I'm glad you still listen to the Fight Song. I find it ironic that whenever I'm out, they always seem to play it. I take it as a sign and I think of you with fond thoughts.

Take care and remember it's okay to stumble occasionally. xxx

[allnew2me in reply to Agora1]

You make me so pleased.

We are doing this!!!! Xx

[Hidden]

My main symptoms are muscle twitching, muscle pains, teeth grinding, feeling sick, sometimes when I concentrate on my swallowing I can't seem to swollow then I panick.. Anyone get any of these? X

[Bramwell]

Clenched jaw and grinding teeth every night.

Trouble swallowing and tight throat muscles have been plaguing me for the last few months and funnily enough last year was very stressful so it looks like the two go hand in hand.

[Hidden in reply to Bramwell]

That's another one of mine! Clenched jaw then it aches so I think there's something wrong with me!

[Hidden]

Hmm let me see. I wake up with sweaty feet iam constantly thinking about death and how will i die or when will i die everything that i feel in my body i assume i have a terminal illness i cant sleep without thinking of having a stroke or heart attack. What if what if what if Its rough.

[RyRywifey in reply to Hidden]

You know, I constantly have to remind myself that 85% of the things we worry about never even happen. I just read an article that reminded me once again

[Maggie-cassidy1988]

I also think am going to die any min off the day all the time wish it would go away always there soon as i wake up till a go to bed doctor said am fine its all in my mind with anxitey just hard to beleive them

[RyRywifey in reply to Maggie-cassidy1988]

Sounds exactly like me. Sometimes it's hard for me to enjoy the day because of these thoughts but I've found a way to train myself that they are just thoughts and that I'm actually not going anywhere and neither are the rest of us. So sometimes I can conquer these thoughts because I know this. Looking up really positive things actually really works for me

[Maggie-cassidy1988 in reply to RyRywifey]

Yeh thats the same as me hope your ok am just waiten on a concouler to see me

[Maggie-cassidy1988]

Hi how yous all felling am ok to day bite scared cause a rhink am just going to die anxietys being a pain to day x