This all happened from one traumatizing weed experience back in February. I've never had anxiety or depression my whole entire existence. I'm 17 but the last 4 months have been like a living hell. And it feels like it's getting worse. My derealization/depersonalizeation is so bad that I have to pinch myself many times throughout the day to see if I'm dreaming or not. My ptsd is triggered about 90% of the time. Someone even talks about weed I almost have a panic attack. I smell it I start thinking I'm high again and all of those feelings come rushing back. I have nightmares most of the nights and the nightmares feel so real that I wake up and think it actually happened. Suicide is on my mind everyday. I don't want to die but things are so bad that I feel like that's the only way out. I'm seeing a psychologist weekly. I take xanax every day. I'll never be the same person as I used to be and that is the worst thing to think about. I just want to go a minute without being terrified. The constant feeling of fear is always there 24/7. I need help and I need it fast.. I constantly just ask why I was ever born at all. And when I think about myself I start to panic because I don't know who I am and I don't recognize myself.... please give me advice I can't handle this anymore.
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This is me. I have been stuck in dream land for over 3 months. I keep reading recovery stories for hope. I also take supplements that seem to be helping but not enough. I am going to see a holistic doctor this month and hoping she can help. I totally lost myself. I don't know who I am or what I am. It's fucking disturbing. What have you tried? I know meditation, exercising, keep busy is suppose to help. Also, if you have anxiety because of it then you might want medication to help and give you a more clear head so you can beat this hell. Read this story:
How long has it been? How is your sleep? Zoloft made things worst for me so I had to come off it. I didn't like the way Xanax made me feel so never took it again. There's other medications but I'm scared to try. The problem is that there's no cure for Dp/dr but it feeds off anxiety so I guess once the anxiety is controlled then you can beat Dp/dr. I feel like I'm mainly anxious because of this crap. I don't know. This really sucks. Are you able to function?
I had this for quiet a long time, but it tied in very nicely with just having had a baby so it took a while to realise it wasn't just sleepless nights but something very weird going on.
One night I was sat alone and thought - oh my word - who am I???? how long have I been feeling like I'm living in a dream world existence and sheer panic set in - and I mean absolute terror coupled with anxiety. I thought this is it - my brain has unlocked and I'm having a nervous breakdown!!
I googled a local psychotherapist and was booked in within 24hrs. that made me feel better.
Prior to the session I made a list of all the things that seemed to be at the forefront of my mind and emailed them to the therapist. That way I felt there was no hiding from my issues. Seeing the therapist helped a lot, even just that initial appointment.
In the meantime I became very conscious of everything around me. I would quite literally talk myself through things.... "Okay right you are going up the stairs", "I'm boiling the kettle making a tea". Sort of like mindfulness to the extreme. I somehow knew that I had to "ground" myself and come back down to earth.
With a combination of the two I got better. It did not take long once I had a name for what I was experiencing maybe 4-6 weeks.
I think you might do well from having a few therapy sessions. They really helped me - just having the space to talk about me.
I seem to be stuck for over 3 months with this and I just read your symptoms and are very similar to mine. I am Very aware of my surroundings and fearful all day. I also find myself talking to myself and saying what I'm going to do. Like " im going to go cook now" " I'm going to take shower" and so on. It's so weird. I'm glad you got out this hell so quickly. I don't wish this upon anyone. The existence thoughts are the worst!