I'm nearly 2 weeks in to reducing my Mirtazapine dose from 45 to 30 mg. [I'm switching to Sertraline, in the hope of less debilitating fatigue. I've been taking Mirtazapine for 10 years, mostly at 30 mg].
And I am in hell.
I work for the public sector, and do admin work in the week, and as much public facing as I can handle, or as 'service needs' demand at the weekend.
But I can't handle the public at all at the moment. Really I can't. The weekend just gone was a disaster.
'm inattentive, because I can only cope with managing myself right now.
I'm cranky, because the dizziness is debilitating.
I couldn't stand still or walk around much, which customers need for what they want.
I had to literally hold onto the self issue machine to support myself while attempting to help a customer, and couldn't talk properly because I felt so bad.
My therapist doesn't think I should be at work at the moment fullstop.
I tend to agree.
And my manager this afternoon advised I call in sick at the weekend, unless things improve dramatically, and because I cannot cope with public facing.
I actually had a bad dizzy spell in my 1:1 with him, so at least he can see it's very real.
I worked this afternoon, my admin work, only 4 hours, well, 3 and a half with the meeting as a gap, It was tough going though, and I had to go and lie down on the sofa for 10 minutes or so at one point.
I feel so exhausted.
I don't WANT to go off sick. But rest is the only thing that helps, and has to be consistent, like not rest then do a bunch of stuff, rest and rest.
I see the Occupational Health nurse tomorrow afternoon at 3. I hope that he takes the situation as seriously as my therapist, and as my manager - in his roundabout way.
I just want to feel better!
Is what I am experiencing 'normal'? I've been through it before with dose reductions and med switching. So I know that technically it won't last forever.
Today my manager asked me when I would stop feeling dizzy, and I couldn't tell him. This tapering and switching process is a 3 month thing - at least.
Has anyone been through similar?