Hi, I have been off work since last Monday due to feeling really panicky and generally not good with anxiety, because of family issues and a couple of things I find a challenge with at work. I'm working as a temp and I tried to go back in to work this morning but felt so bad, shakey, head felt numb, that I had to call in sick.
I contacted the agency I am with and told them for the first time that I suffer with anxiety and panic attacks. The lady I spoke with didn't know what to say and it was really awkward talking to her! She agreed to contact my manager and let him know. I followed up our conversation with an email basically reiterating what I had told her and that I've been having counselling for the last year and a half.
I didn't receive any response to my email so I called the agency back this afternoon and was told a message had been left with my manager - not sure what he was told though as the lady at the agency didn't seem to want to say I'm suffering with anxiety. She said 'oh I'll just say you have a few things you need to sort out' which was a bit frustrating. I'm guessing they don't want their client saying them don't want me back as there is always this stigma attached to mental health and how you will cope with the workload. It's been a struggle all my working life as I have suffered with anxiety since my teens. I've not been able to stay in a job for years as I really struggle with stressy situations at work.
I am feeling a bit panicky still and exhausted with worry about having to try and go in tomorrow. I will give it a good go because I don't need to lose my job as I'm on a contract until October this year, however, working full time in a busy office is hard work when you're not feeling yourself.
I wondered if anyone else feels this way with trying to carry on working and how you cope with it?