I am new here just joined a few days ago.
On november the 6th last year i had a really big panic attack in a bingo hall.. Since then i have had no end since and i havent really been out the house.. From november till now ive been out about 5 times and thats just to the local shop just a couple min walk away.
I suffered with panic attacks for years but nit that often, since the one in november ive had the anxiety and depression come with it.
I am only 24 years old and have 2 young children, this has ruined my life moreless i dont see friends anymore my partner of 5+ years just doesnt understand when i try talk to him he says im being silly or im crazy and has made our relationship hit rock bottem.. I hardly see family either unless they come to mine.
Day in day out i fear im going to have a panic attack or die.. Im continuously trying to control my breathing.. I can feel my heart doing horrible things and alot of the time i dont even want to get out of bed.. I really feel like i cant live like this and that its never going to get better.. Ive been doctors on 4 or more occasions and i feel like there just not listening to me they just try get rid of me after 30 seconds of trying to talk with some anti depressants.. Which i have never taken!
I also went to the hospital about my heart on 2 occasions as i can feel it doing weird things all the time.. On the first occasion they told me nothing was up, on the 2nd occasion they told me one of my heart valves was over lapping.. So now i just dont trust hospitals!
Im hoping to talk to people that are or have been through the same..
Sorry about the essay xx