"hi guys. just came back to give an update. so i got diagnosed with ocd, panic disorder, gad, whatever. i started buspirone because im generally sensitive to ssris and i thought it was working for a bit, but then it started giving me problems. i went off of it and then it gave me more problems. now i never even feel a bit normal. my mood is all out of whack, even worse than before. one second im decent the next second im having suicidal thoughts and ideations and then an hour later thats gone and im feeling a new emotion. im tired all of the time, i dont want to even be awake anymore. my ocd is so bad. i dont know what to do from here guys. i got prescribed zoloft but due to me stopping the buspar and having it give me so many problems im deciding to wait another week for my brain to rest from meds because i just feel that awful. i feel so out of hope that ill EVER recover. the subtypes of ocd i have are unbearable. i cant enjoy anything. every waking minute im suffering. i feel like ive lost myself. especially with the bouts of depersonalization.
if anyone has any tips please just let me know."
Now, that was my post from two months ago, and boy do I have an update. So, yes, i was suffering from extreme OCD, depression, and anxiety. It got so bad to the point where I didnt want to see another day. I'd get mad i woke up. Every second of the day was pain. So I said F it, and I started an SSRI that I was told that I would have a bad reaction to. 1 month into Sertraline, and it has changed my life. My ocd is 10x better, my depression is 10x better and my anxiety is id say 5x better. im sleeping again. im showering. im eating, im engaging in sexual activity again. I'm going outside again, I'm smiling again. Don't give up guys. I was there. I was at the point of no return. Trust me, it's not worth it. I love you all, thank you so much for following me on my journey :).
he is infront of me 
Am I truly a good person?
Not myself what’s wrong?
Lost
I’m not sure why I keep doing this to myself 
