Its been so long that i felt like the old me , the anxiety is still there, the obsessive thoughts, but theyre less frequent , and i dont feel controlled by them ir defined , im able to let go of thingsand not overthink as much , cbt techniques helped me alkt to realize that my irrational fears are even kess likely than i think they are , i finally reached a point where im like “whatever happens happens whather its good or bad” ... i dont overthink the future because not once i predicted it right , im alot less superstitious than before , im able to come to my senses when i get anxious about something very irrational and i tell myself ,
“I RATHER DIE FROM THE WORST CASE SCENARIO, RATHER THAN DIE FROM FEARING IT , OR LOSE THE JOY IN LIFE OVERTHINKING IT”
I really think THIS made my find my peace, that whatever happens, i didnt give up , i tried , i fear sometimes that this is depressions talking and i dont value my life as much , but i dont think so or maybe the meds im taking , i love life and i dont want to hurt myself, i just dont really fear the things i used to , and im Not really struggling with “magical thinking” or emotional contagion , i realized that i can read all i want about triggers, yes the sympathy will trick me into thinking i am devloping the mental illnesses ir disorders i reas about , but i started to realize im safe, and i am mych stronger than i give myself credit for , and SO ARE YOU
It will be scary at first, but get over any fears , and diminish your irrational thoughts until you can live with them and not let them make you anxious , if you are afraid of social events , go to a club , breathe throughout it and tell yourself , are my fears actually real .. whats the worst case , is it likely , if it happened will it be the end if the world ,its risk and reward except that the risk is almost nonexistent ..Building confidence in overcoming fears will help you worry less about the othe things in life , confidence is KEY
