he is infront of me

[NourD95]

right now im setting in starbucks , 4pm in a cold cold day.

unfortunately my xboyfriend is setting in the table in front of me giving me his back 6 meters away.

yes, when i saw him my heart started beating faster and faster and having pain on my stomach even i feel im going to vomiting .

yes i miss him but on the same time i didn't get any respect of that relationship , he abandon me . he left me suddenly without any reason. he made me feel that im a bad person which i know that im not because i was perfect on that relationship. in hate talking about my story with him over and over again but right now im so stress and i feel im going to have a panic attack which i really dont want to have it especially in public and in front of him also he didn't appreciate my illness , he was always saying there is nothing call depression and he was always telling me you are so weak and i hate the people who have a weak personalty .

sorry guys im writing now without any awareness , because im so stressed and i dont feel ok.

[Dolphin14]

There is nothing wrong with you. Get up and make a graceful exit. Get some fresh air.

[NourD95 in reply to Dolphin14]

you know what!! some girl came and sat with him and his friend.

wow im already setting outside. i dont know what to do.

[ForwardBound in reply to NourD95]

Leave, with your head held high.

[ForwardBound]

Put on your best face, you can even give him a cheery hello, and sashay out with your head held high!

[NourD95 in reply to ForwardBound]

we dont do that when we broke up, any way he is setting with a girls and his friend.

[Dolphin14 in reply to NourD95]

Ok you are outside getting air that's good

That will prevent panic.

Go about your day now. Put this behind you

[NourD95 in reply to Dolphin14]

Thank you for supporting

[Dolphin14 in reply to NourD95]

You are welcome

You will be ok without him. There's someone special out there for you. 💕

[Stantonrider]

Take a deep breath, shoulders straight & head held high when you walk past.

If this person gave no respect to your feelings and worries when you were together, don't allow that same person to effect your feelings now.

You are important, you matter, your thoughts & feelings matter... If someone does not respect that then you are in a better situation without them.

🙏💜

[NourD95 in reply to Stantonrider]

I saw him more than once , so now he doesn’t effecting me like before.

I will keep going on my path away from him, thank you so much

[newbie1956]

((( hugs)))

[NWGal]

Get the hell out of there.

[NourD95 in reply to NWGal]

I dont like to run away I like to face it

[LiveandLetLive42]

Oh nooooo! I’m sure that is super triggering. I’m sorry girl. I hate that 😥 Hope you’re book is going well!! PM me if you want!! Xoxo 😘

[NourD95 in reply to LiveandLetLive42]

Thank you for being next to me. XoXo

[pam4him]

I think you experienced a panic attack, which is kind of a defense mechanism by our brain to perceived danger. Sounds like you may want to consider some counseling to work through all of the issues mentioned. Next time, maybe make a quiet exit. Not a rushed one, but gather your things like you were finished, take your drink and calmly walk out the door. Don't give him the satisfaction of seeing that his mere presence upsets you. Acting confident build confidence. Prayers for peace and guidance.

[NourD95 in reply to pam4him]

I guess I had one, anyway i face it . I want to be strong. By supporting all of you I will be strong. We support each other.

[Arniestal]

Well done you for calling time on a rubbish relationship. You are far stronger than you know you are. Give yourself a pat on the back and breathe slow and deep. You must be very kind to yourself. X

[NourD95 in reply to Arniestal]

Im trying to love myself more

[Chanshan]

If you ask my suggestion, stay away from that Starbucks. You are torturing your self so much. I know it is not easy and I am going through samething. But be strong and stop any intraction with your ex atleast for some time. I can tell you if you keep seeing him anywhere, you will suffer a lot.

[NourD95 in reply to Chanshan]

My sister told that to stay away from that Starbucks but I don’t agree because I like to face what makes me weak I want to be strong I want to c him till i c him nothing I don’t want to run away

[Likeabadstorm]

It’s ok to not feel ok. And there is nothing wrong with you. He has the problem. My sons father is the same way he doesn’t believe in any of it and says it’s all in our head and weak minded and your doing all this to yourself. If that was the case I’d stop it right this instant, right? Nobody likes the way this feels and how it makes you feel like a burden to people and all. It’s scary and it is real and you are not the problem at all. This is all new for me dealing with it for a year now. It is not fun and I know any of us would turn this off if we could. I hope you were able to get out of there ok. Hugs.

[NourD95 in reply to Likeabadstorm]

I started feeling better, i will be strong .

Thank you 💐