Sick and tired

[Oshunlvr]

I'm 57, had anxiety and depression as long as I can remember. I'm so tired. I don't want to deal with it anymore. My family is tired of it so I don't talk about it. I have run my friends off in a big fight early this year. My boyfriend is sweet and tries to understand but doesn't get it. My doc wants me to do inpatient Ketamine therapy. I have suicidal thoughts but have never acted and won't.

[TailWags]

Maybe we are related. I am 60 and sick of depression and anxiety. Would love to try something other than the regular combinations and doses of drugs. I tried looking in to some light and vision things. The company stopped replying to me after i asked questions. I hear about these experimental things. My dr would never try them. I am not suicidal but i think about stuff like that many times a day sometimes. Passive something or other and it is supposedly not dangerous. Whatever. For a while i wondered if it meant i was suicidal and just didnt know it. But i guess not. Just plain not suicidal. I am babbling. I.just posted a meandering thought earlier. Replying to you helped me snap out of that frame of mind. Thank you. I wish i could help you. It does help to know there are lots of us out there. Lots of people living with this trying different things. Maybe all we can do is listen and encourage. No feeling lasts forever. Some sure hang around longer than i would like. Take care.

[Oshunlvr in reply to TailWags]

Thank you. It's good to know you're not the only one.

[RemySue]

I'm 60 and so tired of it. Just so, so tired. I hear what you are saying. I assume since your doc is suggesting that you've been through therapy that hasn't helped? I've been through therapy and think I'm fine then I'm right back here to this awful feeling. Best of luck to you

[LoveforAll41]

It is so very annoying and aggravating especially when things can come and go sometimes with seemingly no work. I am doing ketamine and really like it. I did 6 big doses with intramuscular shots that they recommended. They were good but pretty taxing, I'd for sure sleep the rest of the day. I then started doing ketamine assisted therapy and that has been good. I am a big fan of acceptance and commitment therapy where we don't have to fight these feelings but accept them and they come and go. Fighting for me is soo taxing I can't do it and burn out too often.

[Oshunlvr in reply to LoveforAll41]

I feel like that is where I'm at now, fighting. I accepted for so long but the meds don't seem to be working or maybe I've gotten worse. It's exhausting.

[Oshunlvr]

My sister told me that my mental illnesses exhaust her. I never shared them with her until a couple of months before she said that. Out of curiosity, why is your adult daughter living with you?