Hello everyone.
I'm new here and wanted someone's opinion.
Has anyone felt desperate to feel better? Doctors keep telling me I have anxiety but I get really physically ill. The symptoms don't stop. Just when I think it's going to be a good day, I feel like my body gives up and I'm in a never ending painful cycle that leads to dread. I see myself fearing my life because it's like torture. It went downhill since Feb and I'm just getting worse.
I've had anxiety before but not like this.
I can't eat (get horrible tachycardia during and after meals), have blurry vision that has delayed my enjoyment in reading (love books!), overall malaise and extreme fatigue to the point where I can't stand up without almost fainting.
I feel ignored by doctors, family and friends. They treat me like I'm a bother and since they don't know how to make me feel better, they ignore me. As a consequence, depression has been a new addition to the mix.
I want to me be me again. And it's very hard when all I see and feel is a very ill and weak person in the mirror. I'm trying harder, going to counseling, seeking professional help, going to medical doctors and health practitioners, but they also scratch their heads not knowing what to do. π
Thanks for your comments. I just needed to vent. It was a very difficult weekend and thus a very hard Monday so far. Crying or napping, doesn't help as much either. It used to be liberating, now it makes me feel worse.