Help me

Tonight i can't stop the fear and sleep soothing is not working everyday is closer to Christmas my mom is still crying as I won't get up from bed my boyfriend is going to leave me as I won't do anything to improve my life. I fear the morning. I have doctor's appointment. I fear leaving and driving. I miss the person I was. I posted on here all day. I am embarrased feeling really not ok.A nurse told me to take responsibility for my life that I am 46 that i am doing this to myself another therapist told me i am doing this to myself. I never wanted to feel like this or be this it is prison and hell. I pray for a miracle. I don't know why I wong move my body I hide because of my self esteem. I can't look at myself. I am scared of the snow the snow is coming. I feel emotional pain.

[Agora1]

Alexapal, the longer we stay within that prison wall that we put up for ourselves,

the worse we get. I was Agoraphobic for 5 years, never leaving my house. Those 4 walls

around me were suffocating after a while. I feared everything. I mean everything.

*including the snow, the doorbell, the phone ringing and on and on. I felt as if someone

was holding a gun to my head, the fear was that intense.

I was on medication as well as therapy but the "key" was within me. Unless I took

the first step forward, I knew I wouldn't heal.

The causes can be many. As with you having a mother who desperately needs you

right now and depends on you is scaring you, feeding into how you feel.

It's like a new mother, realizing the baby is her responsibility for the next 18 years at

least. How can we make a commitment when the "what if" thoughts keep us in fear.

Please seek help both physically and mentally. You need somebody who will take

that first step with you. I Care and I Understand. xx

[Dolphin14 in reply to Agora1]

Agora

You give such hope to the poster. You have walked in her shoes and you made it through

❤️🐬