No well to live

[Alll123]

hi …so I don't know if anyone will read this or care about it but I don't want to live anymore I don't like this life anymore even if it gets better and even if it becomes perfect I always feel like I don't want to complete it ,What prevents me from ending my life is that suicide is forbidden in my religion, but recently I really can't stand living not for a specific reason but I just don't want to live ,I'm tired of everything even though I'm 18 years old.. I'll be 19 in about a month and a half.. Anyway I'm tired of the difficulty of this life and how I have to suffer to get my rights and also what's happening around the world the explosions and destruction everywhere wars and other things make me feel upset.. Suicidal thoughts don't leave my mind sometimes I stand in the middle of the street and I don't realize that I'm drowning in my thoughts and I might die in an accident.. I have no desire to live I have no desire for anything even breathing I hate my life I hate this life everything hurts me and makes me sad sometimes I feel like I'm suffocating from the difficulty of life

[gajh]

I read this and I care. I am sorry you are suffering.

[Alll123 in reply to gajh]

Naur it’s alright sweetie

[gajh in reply to Alll123]

Do you feel like talking?

[Alll123 in reply to gajh]

Yeah why not

[gajh in reply to Alll123]

What do you like to do?

[Alll123 in reply to gajh]

I can give you my instagram account we can talk there if u don’t mind ofc

[gajh in reply to Alll123]

I don't have instagram. I would be happy to talk to you here though.

[Alll123 in reply to gajh]

Alright no problem, well honestly I really wanna end my life so bad I really feel tired and idk what to do I can’t feel happy I can’t feel like I enjoy a single thing in my life I don’t want to be Rich or having a job or study or anything I just want to disappear this feeling is killing me I don’t want to socials I hate seeing ppl so much and unfortunately I’m getting into college in like Sunday and I can’t with it I can’t stand that

[gajh in reply to Alll123]

Have you talked to anyone about all of this? You could call a support line or talk to a school counselor, if you can't talk to a therapist. You shouldn't have to suffer like this on your own.

[Alll123 in reply to gajh]

I can’t do that no one should know about this especially my family

[gajh in reply to Alll123]

If you talked to someone else, your family would not have to know.

[Alll123 in reply to gajh]

They will they know everything…but what if I just jump?what if I then no more of this why is it a bad thing ? Maybe life is not for me

[gajh in reply to Alll123]

Will you please call a crisis line? You deserve to have support.

[Alll123 in reply to gajh]

I won’t call anyone I don’t want help or hope anymore

[gajh in reply to Alll123]

Ok. What do you want to talk about?

[Alll123 in reply to gajh]

Nothing I’ll just keep living like this cuz I don’t want to end up in hel! But I’ll hope I’ll die as soon as possible

[gajh in reply to Alll123]

I care that you are suffering.

[Alll123 in reply to gajh]

You don’t

[gajh in reply to Alll123]

I do care. I have made some really good friends here. I care about the people that I talk to. We are all suffering in some way and are all here for each other. We understand each other.

[Alll123 in reply to gajh]

You may be right but I don’t deserve it

[gajh in reply to Alll123]

We all deserve support. You do deserve support. You can find support here. There are people here who want to help you.

[Starbooks]

I care that your suffering as well

[Alll123 in reply to Starbooks]

I’m sorry but you don’t I’m just a random online

[Starbooks in reply to Alll123]

We are all in the same boat. We are here for eachother

[Alll123 in reply to Starbooks]

But no one will save me

[NylaCAT]

I’m sorry that you’re going through this. Sending you love ❤️

[DontJudge]

I'm sorry to hear you're going through this much. I hope you get more strength and perseverance to scale through this phase of your life🙏

[Lonely_bones]

Sometimes death feels like the only way to escape your mind. It seems like you dissociate a lot. I understand that it hurts to live. That there might be this constant weight on you that you can't get off. Here's something that helps me. Sit on a rooftop ( on top of a parking garage or somewhere decently high ).

Your first instinct is going to say " i could jump right now". But here's the thing. You could. You could make that choice whenever you want. But here's where it helps me. Instead of jumping, just observe. Observe how high it is and how the air smells up there. Observe the city lights and listen to the cars drive by. Stay there for a while and just let yourself think. Then when you're ready to go, say goodbye to the spot and walk away.

Walking away from a chance to die is the first step in walking away from feeling like you want to die.

I hope this helps a little.

You bring things to this world that no one else can. So please stay. 🩶

[Alll123 in reply to Lonely_bones]

I just saw this and honestly I’m so grateful and thankful for your words I’ll try it soon tysm

[Lonely_bones in reply to Alll123]

Aww of course babydoll❣️ it's okay to not want to be in pain anymore. There's no need to feel any guilt or like somethings wrong with you. I'm proud of you for at least getting it into words that you don't want to be in pain anymore. And maybe one day you won't be

[Alll123 in reply to Lonely_bones]

aww 😞😞you are so sweet honestly, yeah I’m done being in pain and deeply I know that I don’t even want to d|e too I really want a better life